Wow was just thinking today that "TB hasn't done an update for a while, better spam his blog when I get home from work."
Nice tidy car bro, Toyotas are very reliable.
As for the girl troubles, remember what Worm says:
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I'm 100% serious that I literally had that quote typed out at the end of the blog post, then deleted it 'cause I didn't want to seem like a jaded cynic 
Couple more things I left out..
-Mostly done with the AHK script to arrange tables on my second monitor, w00t
-Had my first night doing a personal development course that is required before you can become a phone counsellor at youthline. 10 people in my group, I'm the only guy ♦
Haha, age breakdown was interesting.
3 were at least 15 years older than me, 2 less than 20 and thus rather inappropriate for me and 4 within "striking range" ♦
Sold my car today, went for 200$ which I'm happy about 
Went straight to the dentist for a 150$ checkup (hah!) and I'm getting an x-ray tomorrow to gauge precisely the difficulty of extracting my wisdom teeth.
If it's not too difficult it will set me back around 1700 and my dentist can do it, if it's more tricky will need to get a specialist and it's closer to 3k$ D:
Gotta griiiiiind
Hey terrorblade,
I was just going through english forums as always and i found your thread ;). I was little taken to surprise by seeing your last post. 
If it's not too difficult it will set me back around 1700 and my dentist can do it, if it's more tricky will need to get a specialist and it's closer to 3k$ D:
It's going to cost 3K$, that's fucking expensive man, rathen than that you can take trip to INDIA, which will roughly cost 1K$ both ways and you can see our beautiful country for a week and in the end you can have your teeth removed at cost of $50 at most :P. I had my sisters wisdow teeth removed for $20. So you have memorable vacation and may be little shopping and your wisdowm teeth extraction with in 2k$, but if you come down south, i can accommodate you in my FLAT and show you around in my car ;), so accommodation is FREE as well.
Howz the deal?
I just wanted to say that I currently have toothache, and I hate dentists having been badly affected by having manky teeth and parents who let me watch Marathon Man at an impressionable age.
Why don't you use the blackmember / coach avatar, as all the german bm/coaches do?
Well to be fair - they only have it as picture in the signature, but still....looks fine to me ♦
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NOPE, I'M NOT DEAD (yet)
Hey guys, I've missed blogging so much!! I've been working to a barely acceptable level the past month or so, perhaps 50-70% of capacity, which is simply not good enough and if there's anything I've learnt from this blog it's that done right, I'm capable of so much more.
I've continued some of my good habits that I have engrained so although blogging fell through for several cycles 30% is better than 0%.
Why/Where have you been? Life is void of meaning with no terrorblog updates!
To boil it down to a single word:
Girls.
To expand a little, life balance issues.
To expand a little (lot), October-December I had created what I thought was a quite well-balanced life. The crucial flaw was my social life section had become unbalanced. It was based upon a relationship that I realised too late was unsustainable, so when I ended that, I didn't have much to fall back on. More importantly, I didn't want to.
The void left in my social life was eaten up by work. When I'd usually host a dinner party or make some effort to organise something with choir friends I'd simply keep playing poker until it was bed time, which was fine and dandy for my bankroll for the first few weeks but it was a feedback loop where my average mood gradually fell until my motivation to even work dropped off. I had even stopped playing piano/singing (choir was still on break too, just started up this week!).
So I had cut out 80% of my social time, and more or less completely stopped the therapeutic "me" time of my solo music stuff.
Also, I was under the false impression that my new-found hard working spirit was predicated upon the excitement of getting to know a great new person, which ignored the facts and left me feeling hopeless.
Luckily, this downward spiral has plateaued, and I'm proactively working to reverse it. I say luckily because by chance, the PD course that I have to complete to be able to work as a phone counsellor for youthline covers the importance of self-care and maintaining a proper work-mental-social life balance.
It spurred me to look back and re-evaluate, and I realised that my blog was in full swing for a whole month before I even met this person, therefore I can find again the power to become a total BOSS taking into account the lessons I've learnt along the way.
So here I am, finally writing a decent blog post on this fine autumn evening.
Like I said, jan/feb haven't been a total wash, I shipped a fairly decent amount compared to the corresponding months last year, but I made a very little amount of improvement which is the best indicator of future success.
Non-poker stuff
-I'm 7/10 through the personal development course before I can begin basic training to become a phone counsellor at youthline! This has been the highlight of my week for the past while. It's been great getting to know new people while learning things about yourself, couldn't have come at a better time really. Time has flown and I'm looking forward to the challenges around the next corner!
-My new car has been great. She runs like a dream, I just hope she doesn't feel to bad when I say I wish I had a manual transmission or that my next car is going to be more powerful Still haven't come up with a name yet though....
-Getting my wisdom teeth THIS afternoon, D:!!! This has been weighing on me for a looooong time and it's gonna be amazing to put it behind me. This + having to get a new car + shipping a few k$ to the tax department early april have been the trio of things I'd been worrying about the past while. After tonight 2 things will be checked off and all I have to lose sleep over is is cash & hoes. Word.
I'll have to decline the invitation to come and see India at this point MaHnaK, it's only costing me 1200$ which I'm pretty happy about!
-Today also marks an end of an era. As of 08/03/2012 at 1100 hours NZST I will no longer be employed as a PS.com coach!
It has been fun and rewarding, apparently I have done over 260 coachings for pokerstrategy in my years here. My choice to leave is due to several factors.
Firstly, my FLSH game is more rust than steel at this point. Having not even played a hand outside of the coaching in over 2 months, nor studied the game for at least 3 you lose confidence quite quickly! Others are more qualified and I believe my replacement to be very worthy (datsmahname).
Secondly, I want to free up a bit of time as soon enough I will be volunteering at youthline and I somewhat considered my work for pokerstrategy to be along those lines.
Thirdly tying into the above, I want to focus all my energies on become a super baller.
I'm not "going" anywhere, I might still drop in to the coaching now and then and I certainly plan on being active on the forums in the future. I may return one day as a PLO coach but we'll see 
I want to say a big thank you to pokerstrategy for giving me such a great opportunity
Just wanted to let everyone know what's up, now it's time for my final coaching D: Afterwards I get drugged up for a few days. I will have a new blog post before dusk this Sunday detailing where to from here
Gonna play ridiculous amounts of mass effect 2 in preparation for 3 which is in the post!
Thanks for reading,
TerrorBlade
Nice to see you back sir!
Your work help me back at the time when I played fixed limit (thank you!) and I was wondering where the hell you are?
Are you going to keep playing? FL or Omaha? Thinking about other occupations?
GL!
Oh man, i didnt know you quit coaching:(. I wish i would have popped in on your last coaching, hmm.
It's Business Time
Straight down to it, to get motivated I need some achievable short term goals that can be modified every week based on how they worked out.
While the blog was dark in January I burnt out pulling some 14 hour work days filling my recently voided social life, so the need for balance outside of myself is really clear now. What I mean by that is I need to actively fight isolation to avoid that happening again. Having quit my coaching burns another small connection to people so I'll need to replace it somehow.
Building from the ground up, here are my goals.
Long Term (3+ years)
- Build a high level of financial independence by using the money made from poker to develop a passive income (perhaps property investment?)
Medium Term (1-2 years)
- Move up to mid/high stakes for PLOHU or whichever game I'm playing at the time.
- Travel. Fiji has whet my appetite for adventure! This includes attending a black member party
Short Term (Next 12 months)
- Continue building bankroll with FLHU whilst working on PLO game. It's been working out well even without blogging motivation, so, if it ain't broke, don't fix it!
- Become an accredited Youthline phone counsellor!
- Continue working with the Auckland Youth Choir, singing with my band & at country music club as well as put out videos for my youtube channel!
- Maintain an active social life (probably the hardest to stay on top of, easiest to get complacent on and most damaging if unchecked)
Near term (Next Month)
- Find a coach to teach me PLOHU!
- Make friends with some PLOHU players so we can review each other
- Start working on mnemosyne databases for FL&PLO HU
- Blog post every week reviewing what happened and what to do better!
- Host at least one dinner party!
- Lunch/dinner/hangout with a friend 1 on 1 once a week
If I can complete these goals for march I have chosen a reward! My sennheiser PC350s are falling apart pretty bad so I've been eyeing up some new headphones.I've decided at this stage to go for the Denon AH-D2000 A couple more things. Firstly I got my wisdom teeth out on thursday and that sucks, hard. Haven't got a good nights sleep since then and my left side is still giving me trouble. Going into the dentists this thursday to get stitches out apparently but I don't know how it's gonna go down. F%#%)@#% ANNOYING not being able to get enough sleep to focus on work, so I've been playing games the past few days. Oh well.
Been playing a near-ludicrous amount of Mass Effect 1 & 2 (first time of both) last week and a bit. The first bored me in many ways but I slugged it out and it became quite compelling in the final act. The sequel is truly great so far, I'm 24 hours in and I've just finished all of the "character development" side missions, SO GOOD!! Mass Effect 3 should be arriving in the mail this week ♦
Also... it's BACH TIME™ in a MONTH!! If you don't know what I'm talking about go back a few posts!
Week of 12 of February
-Morning walk. Good times.
[X] [X] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]
-10 hands in each of my new study card DBs
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-lunch/whatever with someone this week
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-Practice "wind down hour" before I go to bed to promote good sleep
[F] [X] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]
-Spend 2 hours practicing piano/singing
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So, there you go. Excitement.
TerrorBlade
Solid post. I have never played Mass Effect 2 or 3, because of exactly what you mentioned. Mass Effect 1 was incredibly dull and boring imo 
bach, w00t w00t!
Originally posted by Wriggers
Solid post. I have never played Mass Effect 2 or 3, because of exactly what you mentioned. Mass Effect 1 was incredibly dull and boring imoheresy, mass effect 1 was great and 2 was even greater!
ye no hating on mass effect, MAAAAAAAAAAAN I wish my comp didnt suck and couldnt play me3 
hi tb, nice blog 
@Wriggers, it's definitely worth slugging out the main story as I felt really compelled in the final hours of the game but more importantly making it to ME2 is worth it.
No part of ME2 feels shoehorned in or bland, there is no vehicle combat (which was a weakness imo, too easy and repetitive) and 90% of the optional "questing" is basically exploring the characters and cultures of your team. It was a truly *great* experience.
ME3 should be arriving within the next week or so YAY ♦
Hey,i just saw some talk about ME3 and had to say something ,it's pretty awesome and they introduce a new multiplayer thingy ( it's pretty important,u will see ) . I haven't played ME1 but a lot of people say it's kinda boring but ME2 is awesome ..i finished it last year. Also ,there are some DLC's and ME2 Arrival or i don't know exactly but it's important because it links the story from me2 to me3 .
Nice blog btw , cheers
WHAT UP FORUM?
It has been a pretty mundane week in that no big revelations have made themselves known to me, but expecting to get right back into it last monday 4 days after wisdom teeth extraction was quite a big ask. I ended up "no alarming" it every day just because I thought I'd let my body take however much rest it needed to be on the safe side.
Got my stitches out of the widsom teeth sockets. The wounds are quite well healed so I think I will return to the world of the fit this week. I destroyed my arms and chest with a dumbell workout on friday so I won't be going to kickboxing tomorrow but I'll go for at least a run every day if not run + kickboxing. I'm hoping the wounds won't reopen due to the greatly increased blood flow, might give sparring a miss this saturday..
Week of 12 of February
-Morning walk. Good times.
[X] [X] [X] [X] [X] [F] [F]
-10 hands in each of my new study card DBs
[F] [F]
-lunch/whatever with someone this week
[X]
-Practice "wind down hour" before I go to bed to promote good sleep
[F] [X] [F] [X] [F] [F] [F]
-Spend 2 hours practicing piano/singing
[X] [F]
-Monthly completed - Dinner party! [X]
Managed to do pretty well in my social goals, but awful in poker In fact I feel really sick from too much food/icecream after having a couple of friends over. I love cooking!
Poker was baaaad to the point where I didn't even make a single study card. I watched some phil galfond HU PLO videos which are always great and for the first time I had what I'd consider some real heads up "matches" where I felt I identified an edge.
I think a better system might be simply to have a review time each day where use HEM to list the hands where I got all in and also the hands where I lost big pots without showdown and see what's up there. I used to do that when I was studying 6-max where if I only had 1-2 marked hands I'd look at the biggest losing or bad equity hands. Also mental journal has to come back. I my tilt resistance used to be one of my biggest strengths but it's definitely a weak-point now. I got RIDICULOUSLY tilted against some guy who was apparently a big loser on PTR who seemed to be 3-betting 50%+ but I kept running into the nuts and then stacked off too light a couple of times before quitting him. I'm going to prescribe some Jared Tendler for that
Wind down time before sleep failed pretty damn hard because I do so many things in the evening. First night was big fail 'cause I went to the pub after choir, ended up getting home at 11, gg. Two nights this week I spent an hour reading and relaxing, perhaps I need to see how I go once I work in exercise again.
To really get back to 7am starts I have to get the fitness back on track after the week+ hiatus. The last week overall has felt really sluggish and cloudy, it's amazing how different my mood is when I'm regularly exercising, ugh.
Oh yeah, and mandating a creative output (music) seems silly now. I simply didn't feel like it at all (likely result of no exercise etc.) until friday, so that's scrapped.
Morning walk is good but I'm not "goaling it" on weekends.
Week of 19th of March
-Morning walk is good
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-1 on 1 hangout/catchup with someone
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-Spend 45 minutes reviewing all ins and big pots at the end of the workday
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-Resume that hard cardio, run or kickboxing each day contingent on not interfering with dental healing
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-Keep a mental journal each day
[ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]
Okay, gotta go, seriously feel sick as hell 
Oh yeah, totally forgot to drop in on datsmahnames first or second solo coachings =( Will definitely have to listen this week ♦
TerrorBlade
you just gotta figure out some near gto type play for PLO (it's not really THAT tough for 100bb i feel) and just stack off w/ x% of your range of hands against those players. just need to weather the variance imo, it's obviously a swingy game
if you know him better/have more detailed reads you can save stacks in certain spots etc. but really if you're lost in some match against a bad kid just revert back to "gto" and print money
small update
"Okay, gotta go, seriously feel sick as hell"
Turns out I didn't just eat too much food.
Spent monday and tuesday mostly in bed, just felt like trash the whole week basically so I played a little when I felt alright and managed to get a good day in on friday. Spent weekend relaxing so I could be good this week.
Didn't go for any runs and had to cancel on a friend 
I'm gonna simply copy paste last week for this week's goals. Only difference is this will be the end of march so I have to try find a coach.
Can't wait to get back in fighting shape, basically been out of action for 2 weeks now! My lungs are going to burrrrn at kickboxing today but it's gonna feel amazing afterwards 
Alright, to a productive week and when I smash these goals I can get some shiny new headphones mmmmmmmmmm 
Week of 26th of March
-Morning walk is good
[ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]
-1 on 1 hangout/catchup with someone
[ ]
-Spend 45 minutes reviewing all ins and big pots at the end of the workday
[ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]
-Resume that hard cardio, run or kickboxing each day
[ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]
-Keep a mental journal each day
[ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]
-Find a coach and book a session
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Fare thee well
TerrorBlade