I want to be a millionaire so f*cking bad

Originally posted by Iam2good
Day 47

Pfffffff, lost 200$ again. Variance has knocked me down on the ground, and I am unable fight back. The sad thing is that I still run above EV, so I am probably playing like a fucking donk the whole time. I have to puke every time I am losing a pot, I need a break....

You can't talk and think like that. Millionaires don't so you shouldn't either!

Take it easy. Maybe it was too much playing and you burned out a bit. Take a break and start thinking about your mental game. Make some homework about psychology preparation and start implementing it into your routine.

You have very nice blog. Go read your blog from the start and you will see how much energy and time was put into it. You will overcome it. Also, coming back to basics won't harm you and playing a bit less agro won't hurt the variance.

I hope you find your way as soon as possible. Be well and good luck.

Day 48

Yaxkukmian#

Tnx for the compliment! I will start tomorrow off with a video about tilt/variance. Today was a pokerfree day, I hope I'am feeling more fresh again on the tables.

I didn't played poker today. Instead I went to Amsterdam to relax a little and relieve the stress. Fun day, but I am exhausted right now. So i will go to bed quickly.

Day 49

I am just getting home after a night out. I didn't played many hands today, probably only 450 hands are so. After those 450 hands I lost about 10$, so nothing special. I didn't played a lot of hands this first week of September. Due my downswing I didn't enjoy playing poker to much. I play mostly on the Ipoker network right now, but I am feeling way more comfortable playing on stars. Ther's absuluty no doubt I find pokerstars having the best graphic/software on the market. As long the first deposit bonus runs I will play mostly at betfari though.
Tomorrow I will play ateast the 215$ 6max WCOOP tournament, and maybe the 215$ WCOOP on half nine but don't know for sure. I will also continue making my homework.

Try to keep motivated, it's only a matter of time you will again. Good luck with the WCOOP!

Day 50

Sandercvo#
Tnx!

I played both events today and didn't cashed either of them. I didn't played good and didn't run well. Maybe I should watch some MTT video's to work on my tournament skills. I am a little tired now, so I am not going to make any homework. Tomorrow I will move to the city and will have more time to play.

Day 51

Finally I had a winning day again:) Even though I had a winning day I am not satisfied with my attitude. After I lost almost 2 buyins against a fish, I begent to feel frustrated and tilting again. After 320 hands I stopped playing the fish, even though I knew I had a edge. Losing has to much impact on me right now, but it seems I can't do anything about it.

Well here is the Graph for today:
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Homework

20 hands where I bet the turn

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97 hand
I should prob bet bigger OTT. I have a open ended Straight draw, so standart double barrel.

A10 hand
Most of the time this is always a double barrel. Especially against this guy who folded 18% OTF and 70% OTT.

K7 hand
CST: 20
FTC: 47
FCBT: 29
FCBR: 66
He doesn't fold much on the turn, but with my GS+overcard I think this is a good barrel. He also folds allot to riverbets, but that makes it even more profitable.

1010 hand
I played this hand against the same guy. It's defently a thin valuebet, but there are flush and straightdraws villian could have. There is also a chance he going to pay me with 8x, so I like my double barrel.

K5 hand
CST: 16
3b: 37
FTCB: 46
I prob thought he couldn't have a strong hand, because he has such a high 3bet%. He almost never has two pair+, so I could go for the triple barrel.

J6 hand
CST: 35
3B: 16
FCB: 53
Chr: 14
FCBT: 33
FCBR: 27
He didn't fold much on turn and river. I think it's a close spot. The 10 hits his range quit often and the ove... but that doesn't matter much. This is a perfect bluffing card, I expect him to fold a lot.

A6s hand
FCB: 20%
He could have a very wide range, the Q is a nice card to barrel. If he has 3rd pair or worse he has a hard time to continue.

KJs hand
CST: 32
FCB: 70
FCBT: 33
A ace is a good scare card to bluff on+I have good equity against his calling range OTF.

J10 hand
Villian folds 60% OTT, so easy bet with all the extra equity.

A4
FTC: 33
FTCT: 33
He still could win at the showdown if villian has a draw. I have a GS with a overcard and the king is also a decent bluffingcard.

107 hand
CST: 24
3bet: 9
FTC: 40
Low samplesize. The hands he could fold out OTT are A10/AJ/A2 and pocket pairs. I don't think this is a very big part of his whole range, so I don't expect I have to much fold equity. I have a gutshot so it can't be completely bad.

Q7
No information.
The king hits his range often, so it's not the best card to barrel on. With the gutshot it seems like a standard spot to bet.

Day 52

I won 2 buyins today, so it's getting better. I watch some old videos from gordon today. It's defentily best to play after watching those videos IMO. It's the best way to implement the things you learned as soon as possible before you forget. I am not saying that I have learned allot of new things, but it's a good refresher and remind me on the things I forget.
I am thinking about to play the WCOOP 215$ HU tournament tomorrow. I can pay 4 buyins with my FPP's and I am also going to play some step S&G's. So I expect I will play 5 or 6 events in this WCOOP. It would be nice if I could make a deep run in one of them.

Day 53

Homework

Post 5 hands where you check-call for the correct reason

I don't use this line very often after I lead the flop. It's defentily something I should put into my game more. Mostly I only check-fold or check-raise.

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A10 hand
St: 80
FT3b: 40
FCB: 34
BIP: 65
I think it's a decent line to take against him. He will probably bet out all his air hands.

AJ hand
ST: 61
FT3b: 13
Fcb: 41
FCBT: 40
BIP: 100
240 hands
He has a high BIP so it's not a bad line to take. I prob prefer to play this way with a hand like A10.

AKs hand
St: 68
FT3b: 13
FCB: 36
FCBT: 40
BIP: 33

He only has potsize left, so I can also push the river if he decide to check back. I would probably take this line against everyone.

QJ hand
St: 100
Ft3b: 22
FCB: 24
FCBT: 25
BIP: 70

He prob has a wide floatingrange OTF, so I give a chance to bluff.

Q7 hand
St: 100
FT3b: 50
FTCb: 45
FCBT: 67
BIP: 100
67 hands

Low sample. I don't know exactly why I played it this way. It looks to me, that betting the turn is most standerd. He had a low AF, but I don't think it's that useful after 67 hands.

Day 54

Homework

Post 5 hands where you checkraise the turn. Explain why.

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AQ hand

I can not view any stats of him, but I can explain if this is a good line. He should have a high BIP, otherwise this is a mistake. Secondly I should look at his range and decide which hands he will bet after I check. I think Q10 and lower will probably check back OTT. Also his pocket pairs between 55 and 1010 will prob check. He will bet KQ, Jx, 109, K10 and maybe he has even 98 in his range. I think A10 will check.
The downside is that we give him a free card when he has a pocket pair or A10. Also we could lose value against a Qx hand if he decide to call against a 3barrel. So I prefer to just bet turn.

A10 hand
Villian was kinda aggresive after 35 hands.
I can get action from flushdraws and J10,Q10 and QJ. Downside is that he could have a Ax hand with a lower kicker who is willing to call 3streets. For that reason it's a less favorable play, but not bad.

J10 hand
I have no stat on him.
I think it's not a bad play to check raise. He could have a lot of draws+not all Qx hands would bet here necessary. I put myself in a akward sot when I am betting and he isn't folding, therefore I like my play.

109 hand
CB: 80
CBT: 68
FCR: 60

Because he barrel so much OTT I went for this line. I think it's a decent line to take if villian didn't fold to Check raises on the flop, but in this case he does so it's much better to check raise OTF instead OTT.

77 hand
CB: 80
CBT: 80

I went for the check raise with basically no outs to improve. The reason I put this hand here, is because this is a perfect example where bet sizing tells come to play. I had a tell that 50% potsize is weak and therefore I went for the check raise. This is a good reminder for keep focusing on different betsizes.

Day 55

Homework

Post 5 hands where you donkbet the turn. Explain why.

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I don't take this line enough. This is a line I should implement more often in my game.

76 hand

ST: 91
CB: 71
CBT: 56
FCR: 14
FCB: 18

Chraising isn't the best option, because he doesn't fold. I think this line isn't bad to try out, but I don't expect him to fold a lot on this drawy board. I would also not go for a double barrel because he has a WTSD of 39.

QJ hand

I think this line is pretty good. I don't expect him to bluff on this turn, so why not bet for value than.

Q5 hand

Basically the same reason. There are a view more draws out there who could bet itself. Also Q5s is a little bit worse than the previeus hand, therefore I think both lines are OK.

A5 hand

ST: 92
CB: 92
FTC: 60
FCR: 78
I like to donkbet when the turn pairs up. There are no extra outs villian can get, and most of the time he has nothing. Against this oppent I could raise him on the flop. It's probably better, because I don't give him a free card.

K7 hand

Same reasoning here. It's not likely he will bluff this turn, so I bet my hand out for value. He also has a low CBT%, which makes this even a better play.

Day 56

I am just getting home after a night out, and I have to say I am "little bit" drunk. The last couple of days I have won couple of buyins. I really hoping I m done with the 30 buyins downswing. I played rational and good today, I hope I can hold on. I will blog tomorow further, I will prob more fit than.

Day 57

I shouldn't drink so much beer, because I always wake up with a hangover. Almost the whole day I had a headache.....really fucking annoying. Thats also the reason I was kinda lazy today. I had enough time, but didn't played enough hands.
Tomorrow I will go crushing the tables again and own everybody, like always...

Day 58

I played 2K 6max hands and 450 HU hands. In the end I was up around 1 Buyins. I played very calm and didn't do crazy things, so I am happy about it. Especially with HU I felt I played well comparing with most other days. Almost all regs wouldn't play more than 50 hands against me, which is annoying but also a good indicator I played decent.
I told myself I would play 36K 6max hands and 8K HU hands this month. I am only at 25% of my goal, so I have a lot of grinding to do. If I don't worry to much about loses and stuff, it should be doable.

Nice blog. Regarding the tilt and mental status, Pokerstrategy's advice about that: http://www.pokerstrategy.com/strategy/psychology/941/1/

I find this article really helpful, it helps to shift your awareness.

I have decided to not put in as much effort into volume but more into being fully present at each moment when I do play. Once I have reached a certain profit level, I stop and begin a new session the next day when I am again fully rested and have 100% of my focus.

I may change the volume thing once I play at a site with 30% rakeback or stepping up 2 limits or so Good luck!

Day 59

Originally posted by JazBenz
Nice blog. Regarding the tilt and mental status, Pokerstrategy's advice about that: http://www.pokerstrategy.com/strategy/psychology/941/1/

I find this article really helpful, it helps to shift your awareness.

I have decided to not put in as much effort into volume but more into being fully present at each moment when I do play. Once I have reached a certain profit level, I stop and begin a new session the next day when I am again fully rested and have 100% of my focus.

I may change the volume thing once I play at a site with 30% rakeback or stepping up 2 limits or so Good luck!

Well, to be honest I don't think the article is that useful for me. Like the article said, you can't control the unhappy feeling you get after running bad. They maked a good point about the 3rd perspective thing, which is IMO helpful. But even that can't prevent me about feeling unhappy/tilt after I lost 30 buyins. IMO it's mostly person depended. Some people can deal better with variances than others. Also it's very mood depended. How better you feel, how longer it takes for you to go on tilt.

I decided to play some live poker today. It's definitely not my strongest point. I am not good enough in reading people and I don't know if I have a good pokerface are not. I am also not used to play without a HUD:) The donks are very unpredictable. By that I mean that they do allot of random things without any reasoning. I am not complaining, but it's sometime hard to put your opponent on a range. I remember when I folded my JJ against 3 opponents who went preflop allin in a 10 handed game. 1 guy had KQ, and the other two guys had both 55. I was like what the fuck happened, but yeah you can compare it with a 2NL game online.

Today I won 300 euro which is always nice. Mostly standard spots though like getting it in with KK and making a flush OTR. I think I was around breakeven online. I also have some homework to do about river situations. Tomorrow I will continue watch HU mastermind and do the homework.

Day 60

I didn't blogged 60 days in a row completely, so I don't really finished the challenge. Therefore I will keep blogging for atleast couple of days.

Homework

10 hands where I bet the river as a bluff or for thin value.

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AJ hand

Limp: 67
FTC: 11
FCBT: 20
FCBR: 1/3
WTSD: 39
I am dealing with a huge callingstation. Before seeing the stats I was surprised I overbet the river with this hand. Looking it back now it makes a lot of sense to me.
I could try to give him a range OTR using flopzilla, but I thinks I can say by just looking at the stats that he is very likely to call with any jack. AJ will probably the bottom of my valueshuffing range though.

A10 hand

Limp: 44
FCB: 20
FCBT: 27
FCBR: 2/2

Even though he doesn't fold much OTF it has to be a CB IMO. A10 is just to strong of a hand for check folding.
Turn bet is closer, because he only folds 27% and I don't improve in any way. With knowing he did fold 2/2 times on the river, it will be more favorable to bet. I can't expect to win ever on showdown because he has a high BIP and BOOP. I still think this a bet OTT. With all that said, I think this is a must bet OTR. A big part of his range consist out of missed draws and 3rd pair or lower. I am just unlucky he has AQ.

A10s hand

ST: 59
FT3B: 67
4B: 9
FTC: 50

Against this villian I wouldn't mind just calling. I still think he will call 3bets with atleast A9 and A8 , so 3betting is definitely a good plan. Flop and turn is standard I think. I only have half pot size left on the river, so he will get a good prize to call with a weaker holding. It's hard for me to put him on a exact range OTR. If I was in his shoes and I had a good hand on the turn, I would put my chips into the middle on such a drawy board. I have no clue if he would do the same, but it would def the most standard line. Therefore I don't think my shuff is terrible, but If he would show up with a hand like A9 it would have been a mistake.

A5 hand

CST: 55
3b: 0
FCB: 75
CRF: 22
Based on 67 hands.

Because he has a CRF of 22, I expect he will raise with all his good hands OTF. The king OTT doesn't hit his range often, so I think it's a good 3barrel opportunity.

97 hand

CST: 38
FCB: 43
CRF: 29
63 hands

Flop+Turn= Standard. I will use Flopzilla in this hand to decide which range he has OTR.
I'am to lazy to post the results of Flopzilla, so I am just going to tell it. If I assume he is going to Call with secondpair or better, than my bluff will work 52% of the time. Which means this is a profitable move.

53 hand

Only 15 hands.
ST: 50
CST: 29

I will use flopzilla again to figure out if this is a good play. If I assume that he will call with second pair or better than he will call 80% of the time my river bet. In this case however it would't be standard to call with second pair. And because I only have a few hands sample I have to assume he plays somewhat standard until he proves otherwise. So if I would assume he only calls with top pair or better, he will fold 48% of the time OTR. Therefore this is a good play.

K10 hand

Holdemmanager can't find any stats for some reason. Against a callingstation this is definitely a valuebet. Maybe I should make it little bit smaller.

87 hand

CST: 25
FTC: 1/2
Only 18 hands

I don't know for sure if he folds a weak pair on the turn of not. If he does have to check the river if he doesn't I should bet the river. Because I have not idea what's best, I like to just bet.

107s hand

CST: 24
3b: 27
FCB: 44
FCBT: 44
FCBR: 57
CRF: 14
1K sample size

I didn't expect him to call with 53 preflop, maybe I made it the whole time 2,5 or 3x preflop. I should also look at the session stats and know about dynamic and stuff. Still looking at it, I think I played it perfectly fine.

KJ hand

CST: 25
3b: 31
FTC: 33
FTCT: 40
CRF: 25
WTSD: 23
360 hands

it's very reasonable to think that he will fold all his weak pairs and A highs on the river. Even if he folds all his A highs on the turn, than it will be still a good plan to bet. The only hands I expect him to call with are 10x and A8, which will not be a very big part of his riverrange.

Day 61

Homework

10 hands where you check call, because your opponent bets busted draws

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K10 hand
FCB: 27
FCT: 29
BIP: 100
AFR: 3,7

There are many busted draws he could have. Against this guy this is by far the best.

KJ hand
FCB: 20
BIP and BOOP: 100
50 hands

besides busted flusdraws there are not many draws he has in his range. However because he doesn't fold much and only bets 1/4 pot, I think my call is alright.

108 hand
ST: 78
CB: 82
I thought he could have a lot of busted straight draws. He will not bet any pair lower than a 10 this way, so he is relative polarized. Also in general players bet bigger if they have trips in this situation.

Q7 hand
No information. I also don't know why I decide to raise with such a weak kicker. As played, I would lean towards a fold if he decides to make it bigger. But because he bets so small I guess I have to call. He could still have some busted straightdraws.

A9 hand
Very standard hand. He has a lot of low pairs in his range that get counter fitted in on the river. I would play Q high the same way.

96 hand
CB: 25
BIP: 88
50 hands
I would assume it's most likely that he would bet a straight and flushdraw OTF. The deuce on the turn doesn't give him extra draws, so therefore this could even be a fold. But because he has a high BIP I don't think it's bad to call .

A8 hand
ST: 57
CB: 71

He could have 65, 86, 98 and a random heart that called OTT and missed the river. It's also likely he would play a midpair or 3rd pair this way. I don't mind a call, and it's good way to figure out with what he is checking with OTF.

J6 hand
BIP 100
60 hands

I also could bet for thin value, but I don't mind checkcalling.

63 hand
FTC: 11

I think this is a standard spot. There are a lot of missed draws he could have, and he doesn't like to fold.

64 hand
Holdemmanager can't find the stats.
Missed draws he could have are 96, 910 and J10. He will not bet 4x this way and I don't even think fish will valuebet 7x. If he is on the tighter side I would like to see a fold, otherwise it's close IMO.

Day 62

Homework

10 hands where you donkbet the river

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Donkbetting means you have to check-call Turn and bet the river. This is a very rare situation, but It could be a interesting line to take in some situations.

A10 hand
A fish with a 35% WTSD. Well, when seeing the results this is obv the best move.

Q9 hand

He has a 14% CHR. He is barrels a lot and has a High AFR and a low WTSD. This factors don't contribute in justifying a donkbet for value.

AJ hand
If I would know he never bluffs a missed draw OTR, than this is a nice play because it's not sure he would shuff with a bad jack for instant who will call my donkshuff.

QJ hand
This is a old hand, where I have no clue why I would ever play a hand this way.

Q9 hand

He has a 100% CB turn and river with a decent samplesize. A very stupid play by me again.

97s hand

ST: 100
CB: 79
CBT: 69
WTSD: 32

He has a very wide range on the river. It's unlikely he will bluff the river, so my intentions was to get a call from ace high. I think both option are fine.

J10 hand

I almost never donkbet the river, so therefore I also post a silly hand like this one. I am glad to see I played this hand before 2013, because normally I would just raise turn or check call river.

J9 hand
CB: 67
Works out pretty well. Well if I look at how the Flop and turn are played, I can say with certain he doesn't have a ace. I would also discount a strong Jx hand. The 50% potsize bet OTT seems like he represent exactly the sort of hand he has, and therefore I don't think he would bet river himself.

A6 hand

CB: 100
CBT: 75
AF: 6,8
WTSD: 19
70 hands

Against this kind of player, I don't think donkbetting the river is a good idea. I thought he wouldn't bet Ax for value OTR, but would be able to call a donkbet with. I don't think it's to bad, but check calling would probably slightly better.

Are all this homeworks part of HU mastermind course? Did you buy it? If yes I imagine you're satisfied with it but has it exceeded your expectations a lot? Do you think it can bring a lot of value to SH player?

I see it definitely pushes you to work on your game a lot. Keep up the good work and post some graphs:)

Day 63

Originally posted by yaxkukmian
Are all this homeworks part of HU mastermind course? Did you buy it? If yes I imagine you're satisfied with it but has it exceeded your expectations a lot? Do you think it can bring a lot of value to SH player?

I see it definitely pushes you to work on your game a lot. Keep up the good work and post some graphs:)

Well I did''t make all homework that is included in the course. Most important is that you learn something or get more experience. Yes, I did buy the course. I play mostly short handed, and don't even play that much HU. It's a real big advantage when you know how to play HU on a shorthanded table. First of all, you could end up playing HU for couple of hands. Secondly you can adapt better against aggressive opponents with wide range. Button vs BB is basically the same as HU. The only difference is that the button will open a little bit less comparing with HU. I also felt more comfortable playing 3 and 4 handed.

I don't play as much on pokerstars anymore, because I have to play on Betfair to get a big % of the full 2000$ bonus. I don't like IPOkER at all, it's impossible to play many tables and the games are dead. There are mostly 1 or 2 6max tables available and speedpoker is filled with regs. Also it's hard to get action with HU. It's difficult to put a good volume at the site, therefore I still play some bit on stars.
I played a couple of hours today, and lost 125$. Nothing special, but I report it anyways.