click clack clock Goooooooooooood saturday! short update for end of the month, results are quite poor not happy with my specially in the first two weeks, last two weeks it got way better EV wise but nowhere near the level where i want to see my game at and believe I am capable of playing. Post RB made around 4k ev.
Volumewise still sticking to my plan, played 5,1k games leaving me 6k hands to play till end of the year. I made over 140k vpp.
VPP till SNE: 171k
according to plan I should finish somewhere in second week of December.
This month was quite brutal but also very interesting mindset and playskill wise. It wasn't pleasant nor easy but I certainly learned a lot, and paid for that knowledge quite a bit so I hope it will stick 
this time.
Mindset corner:
The golden spot of acceptance.
Ok so this is something that took me quite a bit of time to realize, and probably is and was my most costly leak. It might very well seem obvious to you, but it has been one of the hardest parts of learning and progressing as a poker player.
You know how everyone is different and what works for player A might not work for player B. But why is that? Why aren't things more set in stone for all players. Why things like "being less results oriented" or "work a lot on your game" don't always translate to increase in skill or, even more complicated issue, the hourly rate of a player.
To answer this question one could probably write couple books, like many did, and not really come close to an definitive tangible answers.
Mostly because our mindset is dynamic. One solution might work on player A and be terrible for player B, hell, it might even be opposite a week later.
But wait, tolari, are you telling me I SHOULD BE RESULTS ORIENTED and I SHOULDNT WORK ON MY GAME?
well... yes. Sometimes.
The beautifully crafted info I posted above text, shows you my understanding of my acceptance of poker reality spectrum i wrote today and what I use as a guideline which mindset tools are fit for me, and my current state of mind.
Statements like "meditating will make you play better" are absolutely fucking worthless. The same as " don't check your results", "exercise more", "lead healthy life", "sleep more", "work on you game more", "talk with many players" and all the array of actions that are commonly accepted to be "working" and generally good for your game.
But they are not.
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This is because players (and me) fall victim to seeking quick fixes and not thinking through the implications of the changes or actions that they take. But most importantly players and very often me myself, are terrible at recognizing where on the "acceptance" spectrum they are, or which areas of their game suck, or in other words to know exactly what is THEIR OWN situation.
"meditating will make you play better" - not if you are already at the indifference end and literally become a robot
"don't check your results" - not if you need it to get angry and use that anger to play better, to wake yourself up from being owned at the tables
"exercise more" - not if you are in bad shape, you'll get too tired to play, just go on a walk couple times a week
"lead healthy life" - maybe you already do, maybe you focus to much on stuff around poker, and in reality use it to procrastinate on working on your game strategy
"sleep more" - who the fuck knows how much time you need to sleep - figure it out yourself and stick to it! I know great players with all different ways and patterns of sleeping.
"work on your game more" - in a smart fitting your situation and skill way, don't binge watch on poker videos like a tv series (been there, done that) watch 30 minutes and make notes, analyze and rethink the hands instead of watching 3h of videos.
It creates an illusion that you work on your game when in reality you fry your brain and clog your short term memory with unusable pile of poker concept garbage that will come up while you play that day and fuck you right up in the ass when you stop knowing how to play a spot you played great before. The same can be said for coachings, hand reviews, sweat sessions etc if you don't know what you are doing.
"talk with many players" - but remember to filter the information and rethink the concepts before destabilizing your game.
(I did all of these mistakes at some point of my career)
These are just examples, there is much more to every advice than we would like it to be. And this is something both for coaches and coached - understand your game/situation before making any changes.
The person that gives you the advice is not you, doesn't have the same mindset, the same experiences, health, age or knowledge or table image - only you can figure that shit out and decide what works for you. For your game, for your head.
I would love it if it was as simple as "review your hands for 20 minutes a day and you will be better" but it is not. Not always. Not for everyone and maybe not for you. It will PROBABLY be good but at least think about it because maybe, you are in a spot where you should focus on ONE SPECIFIC spot not just 20 minutes of random hands.
It's scary and weird but the only way to progress when your learning curve slows down is to be really honest with yourself and self aware of your situation. Because it's not about finding stuff that "helps" its about finding elements to work on that give you the max expected skill/personal growth. It's fucking hard
If you can't do all that, accept that the work you do on your game, won't always work.
keep em crushed and have a great weekend!
And yes, im still in Romania but I leave by the end of august so it shouldn't affect me, also didnt hear about any license problems before. But thanks for info!
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