[Closed] Switching to "leisure" poker

yesterday i tilted but quit right away
today i steamed off a 3 digit amount, like 200$(not that it was all in severaly bad played hands by me, I was even a huge favourite in some hands but I cannot deny that I just went a bit crazy)
I guess I'm giving up, I won't be able to reach the 1000$ zone because in that mentality I will lose way more than the extra 250$.

So, oficially ending my serious poker efforts.

Lost 2-3k in the last months with all forms of bankroll management and without tilting off huge amounst. Cash games ruined me. Almost 60k hands nightmare.
I still believe it's not bad play(honestly, you don't need to be THAT good to beat NL50..) but I have no nerves anymore to play, that just sucks me out and I feel like puking when I see the fuckin ladbrokes client.

Here's the graph of the January challenge(without the first 7k hands)

After I get my bonus from the rake race, I will withdraw the majority of my roll(the bits left from it, still its 1200 though without hte bonus) and play only ocasionally predominantly MTT for like 5-10$. I may keep u updated.

Actually I am not sure what I am going to do so let's not say big words. Currently I am mad as shit and I don't know what to think. But what is for SURE is that I am not going on with NL50, most probably with cash games as a whole.

I really want to puke, honestly.

Thanks for the support to all of you who read my b-log but I couldn't get through this doomswitch.

I feel so... after my first costly tilt ever.

Bankroll: ~1160$

Sad to hear it.Maybe change the site? It should help, at least thats what Im thinking of doing.
Me also,Im BE after 27k hands and its killing me.Im so much below equity and we dont even count coolers that it looks insanely "rigged".
GL in real life

Anyway, these last days I've been hardly playing and I dropped down to the 600$ in the rake race. Played some MTT's though and even won 100$ in a 50+5$ tourney for which I won a seat for 6$. Didn't cash in many other though.
Which is still OK anyway, since in the end of January I am still with ~700$ profit(after they transfer my rake race bonus) which I am going to withdraw to reward myself - after all I put a lot of effort during the month - and this is quite a good amount for the bulgarian standarts. I am wondering what to do next but what is for sure is that I am quitting serious grinding and massive bonus hunts - which doesn't mean that I stop playing at all.
I can't figure out what sum to leave online, but maybe 1000$ is ok. This enables me to play NL50 cash, SNG 10+1 or 20+2 and a number of MTT's. I'm not setting myself any goals, just to play when I feel like playing and don't be too serious about it. I will change the site definitely, maybe bwin because the bonus is easy(here I mostly mean the 90 days clearing period so I won't need to put big volume to clear it), I like the ongame network, and would be tracked to pokerstrategy. I will surely leave some amount in the new bulgarian online poker client, just to support the idea.

I am sorry that this b-log turned in the last months in a whine scene but the streak was really tough and it hasn't ended and even trascends in to real life where I just today lost big in a home game against pure donkeys

I feel relieved now because I am not chasing anything and soon the fruits of my hard work this month will be in my bank account. I am saving for a car

Just to mention that I am going to play a 20.000$ added 100+9$ tournament I found online. I won 60$ in tournament dollars and will try to win the whole amount but even if I don't, I will give the rest 50$ myself. I know it's not bankroll optimal but this would be just one time occasion, in a way to "celebrate" the end of the serious grinding with a tournament with a higher buy-in and great value.

I also intend to look more into the hand posting forum and take active participation.

Well, that's it for now. I will keep you updated and I hope that I keep your interest - and stop whining

This evening I played a 24000$ player point tourney in Ladbrokes and the 100+9$ I mentioned(i paid just like 30-40$ from myself, won the rest in tournament dollars).
Played the second very well but didn't make it to the money.
In the first I was very close to the big money but unfortunately I finished 30th with ~100 bucks and a ticket worth 55$(unfortunately it is for a rebuy tournament but I will try my luck without rebuys and add-ons anyway).
I regret that I blew up again so soon before the big money (top 5 was ~1-2-3-4-5k) but I played agressively and prefered either to be in the top 10 or to bust where I did. I mean, 100 or 150 doesn't make a big difference to me so I decided to go for it and except for one hand in the early stage which I played disastrously, I think that I did what I should have done - the rest is luck Thanks to the creators of the videos in the MTT area, they helped me.

Well, that's officially the end of my serious grinding and I switch to recreational playing. I have already deposited ~500$ to bwin, I am not sure whether I will clear the bonus but anyway, there's a lot of time. I have another ~130$ at the bulgarian poker site I mentioned. I am going to withdraw the rest of my bankroll after they credit my account with the rake race prize. That's something between 1100$ and 1200$ which will go for the car I plan to buy during the spring.

What I am going to play?
Well with a little above 600$ there's not much choice but my thoughts lean towards 10+1$ turbos and ocassionally 20+2$(10 man SNG's I mean), adding some 5+0.50$ and 10+1$ freezout MTTs. With the 130$ in the bulgarian site I will play their bulgarian-only MTT's. I will not apply some solid bankroll management but an OK one.

Anyway, I will play whatever I want and when I feel up to. It'd be nice to clear the 500$@bwin after 3 months but it's not my aim.

Now I'm happy to withdraw a nice amount of cash which I have worked hard for

Will keep u updated from time to time and GL at the tables!

Bankroll@Bwin - ~510$
Bankroll@Bulgarian poker site - ~130$

Hi again

Long time no posting but really nothing new concerning poker. I've played very little, like 4-5 mtt's, 10 sngs and 200-300 hands cash since the last post. I lost around 120 in the process
I didn't have the wish to play at all and I still don't because I feel that my passion for poker has more or less worn out.
Anyway, I feel good about the nice amount of money I made and the patience and discipline traits developed in me but now I found a job that I like very much and is only beneficial for me.
It's not full time, but it's 5 days x 6 hours so hardly any time for poker anyway, even if I wished (given that I am studying at the university too).
It's true that I'd very probably make more money from poker but it's not only money that's all about.

I'm a news indexer and am responsible for the categorizing of the world news for the users of factiva.com through different codes.
It involves both english and german(especially the second is important for me because I have the basics but I definitely have not mastered it - which this job will help me to) and I'm coming across loads of information from the world of finance and economics (which is my major in the university). The firm is relatively big and there is definitely a room for development. After the 3rd month there are going to be bonuses related to my performance so the money will be decent too if I do well.
It's good that after 1 month I will be allowed to do this from home saving money and time for commuting.
All in all, it's a very nice job for a student becase it's not too demanding, stays well in the CV, develops you and there is room for improvement. I am very happy that this is my first job ever and still I like it very much.

Sorry to be so extensive about it and that it does not concern poker but I'm really keen on it

I'm withdrawing the rest of my bankroll, leaving just the ~120$ in my bulgarian poker client account. Still, one never should say 'I quit poker'. Maybe I'm gonna play seriously again in the summer when I will have time to because there's no university - who knows?

GL at the tables to the whole community!