finished my 1k block today,
dropped from 100 ChipEV down to 92 but hope that is enough to get promoted to 7s and gold <3
waiting for stars to send me my hands.
If it would not workout thistime I would be really mad/sad 
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last 3 days was only waiting and setting up everything I need for the SpinLegend Gold group.
first i had to wait 2 days until pokerstars send me the handhistory.
than for spinlegends to check and answer me (that happened fairly quick tho)
than I had to set up everything for the gold group (Hud, starshelper, googledrive, gayzo, skype and and and!
but good news is from tomorrow on I am going to play 7$ spins 
yesterday was an interesting day in my pokercareer.
I yet again got stuck in the game and couldnt end my day.
Opened to many tables, played b-c game and kept running into top ranges.
Couldn't count how often I got it in in situations like 44 vs 75s; 77 vs T8; AKs vs 22 for 35bb.
I think i am currently running through a downswing and my b-c game does not raelly help ♦
gotta focus on basic things the next few days, like applying my range 100% of the time, force me to not open to many tables, keep thinking through every hand and not just instantfold/call.
Damn I need a good day to not run in danger to lose the positve mood I am in for quite some time now!
chip ev of 10 in 350 games.
unkown territory I gotta push through. And worst thing is, it's me to blame! The mental side got a strong ally in the past where I could win the most money (or lose the least) when things turn against me. Not so anymore, hopefully it won't spiral down to old habits! Little scared for the upcoming grinds 
Hey man, seen you on the tables the last days.
We just finished a x6 i took away from you 
Im sure you turn the bad trend around. Gl at the tables!
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hey, yeah i remember your name ♦
not sure how we finished tho.
not winning a 6x sounds like me ♦
Originally posted by BadHabit1989
hey, yeah i remember your name ♦
not sure how we finished tho.
not winning a 6x sounds like me ♦
I usually loose them aswell :P.
88>KQ i think or something like that for 12 bbs
have been sick last 3 days and felt like I could not focus enough to grind 7s. So I had to decide wether to go down in limits to still grind some or rest more and recover hopefully even faster. As I did not know if SL would be ok with me stepping down a limit I just had 3 full days without grinding.
I tried to attend the coachings, but after 15 minutes of pure headace and not being able to focus on what the coach was saying I turned off my computer again.
Today I am back at work (we had 2 free days in germany) but still not feeling to great. I hopfe to get in at least 25 spins today in the afternoon.
hopefully work will not take away my complete (limited) energy :/
back at the table since yesterday.
had the worst day of my career yesterday that really took me to the edge of my mental stability.
today running a little better but still having some harsh feelings in my stomach.
playing low volume because I dont want to tilt away all my chips 
at least enough time to watch videos.
I have a bad feeling inside me since I could only attend 2 coachings this week, but I just could not focus enough.
Had a little downpoint yesterday and today considering my cold. still have alot of period where I just dont feel enough power to push through some things.
having to work late ours at work because of the 2 free days we had in germany didnt make it possible to relax enough to get fit, but still I am on a good way now
and hope to have a normal week next week
this blog feels more and more like writing a diary ♦
dear diary.
even tho I hoped the next week would be a normal week with normal volume + practise it tourned out that it wont be that way already today.
had to drive my girlfriend into the hospital and they kept her there (after 5 hours of waiting).
so i had to dirve home and get "her things". now. 7:30 hours after we arrived at the hospital I am home again. powerless (since I am still somewhat sick) and alone 
most of the rest of the day will be filled with stuff like ironing clothes for work tomorrow, clean ferrets and take some care of them (give medicine etc pp).
As I will prolly visit my girlfriend every day after work this week is already fucked pokerwise,
rakeback is in danger and I also have to keep in the back of my mind, that I will have catching up todo to put my 100 hours work in.
Hello Habit
I think you took the good decision by not going down to $3 while you were sick.
It could have done some really bad effect.
When you're on a tight schedule with work or other stuff, and you add your "100 hours" ok poker... This is hard to account the unexpected.
Weirdly, I found myself more able to do my "100 hours" during last month with a lot of unexpected events, than with a "normal one".
Don't focus too much on your hours.
Do your best for your health, the health of your girlfriend, and the health of your ferrets.
(wow, thank you very much, I can cross this phrase from my bucket list 
)
Those are stressful situations. Don't add the pressure of the "100 hours" 
I wish you and all the mammal in your entourage to feel better
Cheers
thank you for your kind words tumlex
as it appears all of this is hugly effecting my mood at the table and I am a timebomb right now.
having a "downswing" in life same as on the table just takes away all the fun.
Even tho I have a few free hours now before going to sleep I just don't want to spend them on poker.
Poker is not my friend right now, its rather a pain in the ass to get to the tables and gift away money.
as you might notice my mental game got a new low point even tho I invested so much time for preparation.
guess I can never get rid of it since im a ranging maniac.
to not only state negative things for now:
As I am not able to attend coachings this complete week yet again I at least take some time during my working hours to review the hands of other spin&Go players and post my rubbish thoughtprocess there.
my girlfriend is getting surgery tomorrow.
My pokercareer will stand still until she will be home again as I cannot focus and tilt easier. (and dont have time)
Good luck to you and your girlfriend for the surgery
Did you try Primed Mind ? This is the new program from Fedor.
It could help you relax and re-center yourself (even with the free stuff on the app)
i have read some stuff about it and for sure listened to some interviews where fedor praised it ♦
I might give it a shot once I settled down somewhat again.
Sergery is done. every day should be a little better by now.
Today was the 2nd time within 3 days I drove to my old apartment and only noticed it when I was basicly almost there...
I faught half an hour (ok 5-10 minutes) with my door and thought its blocked by another key from the inside until I noticed I turned it to the wrong side.
nerves are blank, so I guess it was the smartest decision to not be at the tables at all for now.
also stopped my diet for the time being until everything is back to normal. just ordered pizza.
Hang in there buddy 
Rest your nerves, watch some TV.
I'll eat badly with you, *grabs a burger*, you're not alone.
Glad to hear that the surgery went well.
Take care
thanks tumlex
sharing the pain always is nice ♦
burgers hmm... might be something for ma belly today! ♦
as my girlfriend is home again i at least find some time (and more importantly focus) to play/study some poker.
even tho its far from perfect since I have to drive her arround to docs, have my ferrets to care for and all the work at home, i see the light at the end of the tunnel.
my mainfocus this week is to attend every coaching possible and than play 20ish spins every day to stay on track and not forget the stuff ive learned.
It will get better every week! I still have some hope left to play 1,5k spins this month!
I am really happy with my productivity right now.
RL stuff below first
Spoiler
Flat is really really "man-clean" (mb some ppl understand what I mean by that). Girlfriend is getting better every day and I am happy whenever she relaxes.
Whenr I say something like for example yesterday at 10:30 pm. "fuck I am so tired, I really don't want to iron my shirt for tomorrow" she is like "well I can do that". After that we discussed for 10 minutes that she shouldn't do it and I will do it after my shower. I seemed to have convinced her... When I stepped out of the shower my shirt was ironed ~.~
So in the future I shouldnt meaningless moan (only if I really want her to do it, good plan! ♦)
Ferrets are happy again. they got somewhat mad at me because when my girlfriend was in the hospital they had to be in their "cage" (it is still very friendly with 5 m² and lots of toys) and I only could let them destroy the flat after 7pm (when I returned from the visit). I was so tired some of those days and actually would have prefered to go to bed early, but I did not want to cage them in again that early. so i fought to stay awake until they got silent (went to sleep themselves).
Next days they thanked me by pooping in front of every door but hey I am not mad at them, and I am even happy that they show me when there is something they don't like. But now, we mutually agreed to be friends again!
I found a new hobby. betting on esports. As my past is in the esports and my heart somehow is still stuck with it I often times check results and even watch livestreams (hello work ). back in the days when you could bet with your cs:go items (not sure if thats still valid) I made out of basicly nothing 3 knives which I sold on ebay for ~1k profit back than! YEY! It was just so much more tempting and fun watching those streams when you have bet on one team to win it. Therefor my new hobby is to bet on esports again (mainly wc3 and cs:go as I feel like I can judge the possibilites there pretty well, sometimes sc2 but I am rusty there!). this will be great fun <3, I do not intend to make any profit with this!
As For Poker I can put in some hours again! Yey.
As I do not have as much time for now as I did have before I want to put some of my work time (8-5) into quality poker time.
I already am reading alot of poker related stuff during work (lots of downtime), but yesterday I started to make it to my personal task to post my humble opinion on every posted hand in our SpinLegends Gold Forum! I think this is a way to improve someone very efficiently. At the poker tables we have alot of "easy decision" to make. but trying to solve someone elses hand is different. It is a hand someone else had a "problem" with. Thinking about such a hand has a ton of value for improving!
If anyone has other suggestions what I could to during worktime (no sound, inet available) let me know.
When I come home I still try to put in alot of quality time with the mainfocus on improving. I am going with probably something like 45% learning and 55% playing for now (at home, at work 100% learning 0% playing for sure ♦).
Attended Coaching yesterday, grinded 1 h session, watched a Video, grinded another hour.
That resulted in 47 spins with good chipEV (finally ♦)
Very happy with this. I feel that I am gaining confidence to beat 7s.
My chip ev for the first 1k spins on 7s is 42. it was worse before! trying to up it to 45-50 until 1,5k spins.
Over the weekend I will try to play more poker. We get visitors on Friday evening, but I think I can still grind out 150-200 spins on the weekend.
Looking forward to it!