"My Head is Spinnin ' " - Spin & Go Blog

Day 31
Games: 79
Hrs: 7
CEv: 161

Day 32
Games: 26
Hrs: 3.25
CEv: -75

Day 33
Games: 121
Hrs: 8.77
CEv: 17

Day 34
Games: 99
Hrs: 7.65
CEv: 91

OFF TOPIC

Hello all , from 3 hrs im trying to go back to grind but i can't find my motivation. Maybe is because my back hurts me after my last 8 hrs session , grinding on a kitchen chair , maybe because im not high or because i still miss her . Its one of that days , when memories are killing me , when depression feel like is coming back.
Someone ask me today if i regret my decision doing this .
From 1 year i was struggling with depresion , i didnt know what to do anymore after i lost her. It past 1 year but is still in my head , still in my heart and dreams , i still miss her a lot , I would give everything just to see her one more time.
Some nights I wish i could go back in life. Not to change shit , just to feel a couple things twice.
Poker for me means life , i think poker save my life. He gave me the energy to fight with laziness and to try to become my best version.Poker for me is a constant energy that draws me every day.Poker has taught me what discipline means, working on something on your own day and improving 0.1% until you get where you want to be.
I can't regret my decision doing this but i regret a lot of things that i didnt do or didnt show to her . I went through my darkest times alone but now i have poker by my side.
Have a balance life and think few times before taking a decision in life , love what you do, love the people around you because you never know when life will give you a badbeat.
I can't wait until all the pieces come together and i finally understand why i went through everything i did. Until then I will continue my grinding and my journey.

Day 35
Games: 63
Hrs: 6
CEv: 67

Day 36
Games: 24
Hrs: 3.58
CEv: 4

@YoureSoHigh Super Lines
Keep on the good work !

Best of Skills & Luck @ Tables,
J-C.

Day 37
Games: 61
Hrs: 4.35
CEv: -25

Day 38
Games: 79
Hrs: 6.28
CEv: 28

2002 Games at 7s Report

Games : 2002
Hrs: 207.32
CEv: 89
Net Won : 2268 usd

Chips/Position

Upswing

Day 39
Games: 54
Hrs: 4.22
CEv: 55

Day 40
Games: 74
Hrs: 5.87
CEv: 27

Day 41
Games: 56
Hrs: 4.02
CEv: 20

Day 42
Games: 12
Hrs: 1.97
CEv: 279

OCTOBER

- playing at least 50-100 games per day
- take shots at 15s
- go 3 times per week at gym or swim / running
- study charts
- smoke less
- try to change grinding schedule - woke up at 4 am
- stop playing MTT

Nickname: You're So High
Platform: Pokerstars
Bankroll:

.... stole your blinds like Ali Baba

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