Something else...
Indeed crying or whatever doesn´t help. Anyways, I decided to take a break from MTTs. Will play something else instead. Why? To avoid any tilt or avoid any bad play, to pull myself together and find new strength to play them. I´m tired of loosing and loosing and need to clear my head. So, I will focus on other formats for the next time like CG, maybe will play occasionally an SnG or DON? Don´t know. But: I need something else at the moment!
I need something which is not so swingy. I need a nice side-format besides the MTTs cause grinding MTTs only can be extremely demotivating and demoralizing when you have a longer bad run..... it would do me good to win even 1€! At the moment I would be thankful for every Euro I win.