learning No Limit Holdem - adventure & lifestyle

When thinking about the game, lot of sadness arises. This might be maybe because I was so involved with all of this... At the moment I managed to get the conditions where I can learn the new format, NL 6max cash... first I felt fear towards the whole game and now I feel sadness... Maybe I am afraid to enter the loneliness again, the world where people are. Well, this is the image I get about the game at the moment:

Well, maybe I could move on with life.. letting go of the past. I am in a new place, getting used to it and I finally can play poker if I want. NL Holdem looks like such a complex game, I think it might take time for me to feel the sadness I have towards poker after being away for long time... I almost feel someone might say: jump right into it! start playing! I guess I am no longer there in the professional grinder mode at all...There are many things I need to accept about the whole case.

It's understandable. I feel the same way about certain games I used to play years ago, one of the reasons is the emotional and skill gap. Btw the skill requirements nowadays are very much higher than it used to be, so dedication necessary to beat the games is immense.
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GL to you...
I have a 7 year old and a 4 year old... NLH can be done, it just takes time and some commitment.

I have personally have grown a huge amount the pass 10 months. I have gone from a 30NL player now up to a 200 NL player and on the ground of breaking into the NL500.

My spouse is awesome, that is why I have been able to do this.. on top of this I also work a 70hr. a week job as a chef which isn’t a small feat either..

so life is crazy.. There will be good times and bad times- you just need to work your way through them..

I am also thinking about opening up some coaching as well.. I am based in the USA. Maybe the game play is different then in Europe and Asia but if there is anything I can do to help let me know, any questions or thing like that..

Cheers!!

Thank you so much for replying . jawoftheox, i got your friend request. Mkablo, amazing, the children are so big now wow! you look like a really motivated person. to work 70h a week and play NL500, that's alot . NL500, that is like FL 15/30 or something I think... i have never played that high. so they do open online poker again in US after the Full Tilt crash, right? Mhm my spouse is also taking soooo good care of our children, this is what gives me alot of time and allows me to play. She wants me to play poker, she says that it is good for me, she says she can see I get happy and more balanced when I play poker. This can be true, I used to work on my mental game alot in the past... so I do love focusing on the game

Yes online poker has been up and running for a while, in a few states..

Ah ok that's great I think... such a beautiful and deep game. Some people don't want it I think...

OK. I'm not sure what I'm doing. But I feel I know quite a bit about the game. It is about my poker past, that's why I am able to concentrate so well. It's like when you have played for few years professionally, you kind of know what to focus on. It's like when I watch a coaching video or sit down and play, I'm like always in a state of "learning awe" or something, that's really helpful. It's like you are always thinking about the game and how to improve... So I do feel I'm quite advanced in a way... in the attitude about the game. It's like you know what's important. I'm happy. And I get a good feeling if I think that I can take it to a next level... it's like fun and exciting.

So I was doing inner work and I was thinking like about things that I love. So I started to write: food from my spouse (im used to it), coffee, crystals and poker. So then I remembered what she said - you look happy when you play poker! So I realized I do love the game. I love it so much I search for more and more coaching videos... She knows me. Sometimes it's so good to get the support from another person and hear who you are, something like that.

And, I'm now able to keep a good balance between poker and other parts of life. Years ago I was very unsure about it. Like what is poker, what is poker career? Now I'm not worrying about that so much. It's like i'm in this state of "learning awe" when doing it, when focusing on poker. Lol. I couldn't know it can go even more towards "a beautiful game experience" or something :). Was just listening to a coach and student in a video, and one of the differences between them was, the teacher was really enjoying the game. Like really enjoying. And the student sounded like a bit sad and upset.

Then I remembered I love sharing. I was so happy when I had FL blog here and I could share my progress. Later it turned even into coaching experiences, I started to give advice to new FL players....

I finally got a good idea, routine and plan about what I am doing. I will play NL2 daily for one month now, and after a month, I will deposit $250 and move to NL5. This helps me to take this thing quite seriously, setting up this small routine. I am gaining confidence and stability in my life. I am again happy and capable to be part of it fully and even enjoying new challenges; it has been two years with our second son... it was a huge difference for me this new kid

Having young children around is a wonderful experience.
Be sure to enjoy every moment.

Originally posted by taavi1337
I finally got a good idea, routine and plan about what I am doing. I will play NL2 daily for one month now, and after a month, I will deposit $250 and move to NL5. This helps me to take this thing quite seriously, setting up this small routine.

If you win sufficient $$ at NL 2 will you still deposit?

If I manage to climb up to NL5 without depositing, would be wonderful... I still feel I could beat that, but first I play to get solid routine, extra confidence, even more skills... and, I don't have the bankroll at the moment. I love confidence-building and not hurrying... I feel that if I develop good habits and right focus, I could use it on any stakes anyway the same way. I think I wish to play with 50buy-ins at least. At the moment I have $50 on Stars. Playing NL2. So that's a bit under my level. But I work on mental-emotional game a lot. And to win 100buy-ins in NL2 in one month would be quite sick I would say... I think rather play less and then move up anyway, and I will feel ready after one month, I have decided. Interesting, isn't it.... my approach and strategy

Hello, good luck with the grind

How many tables and how many hours do you plan to play each day for this 1 month on Nl2 ?

it is 2tabling no limit 6max cash NL2 on Stars without a HUD, about 2hours a day 6days a week at the beginning

It feels like we've got a lot of things in common, a part from the fact that I never played poker professionally or have made a lot of profit in poker.

I recently started playing poker again after a 7 or 8 year break. Never played NLHE cashgames with profit. MTT is difficult to combine with a family of three 3 children, so I also want to learn and progress in cashgaming.

I started playing NL2 Zoom full ring though... which is probably completely different than playing SH.

Good luck anyways, I'm definitely going to follow your blog.

MTT with a family Is rough... cash is so so so much easier, as you make your owe hours.... mtt you need to be playing at certain times..

Originally posted by taavi1337
it is 2tabling no limit 6max cash NL2 on Stars without a HUD, about 2hours a day 6days a week at the beginning

Then you are not even close to what you hoped for, to get a BR of 250$.
With your schedule you will have lets say 4500 hands this month. Even if you get close to 20bb/100 that only means you gonna win around 20$.

Thanks for replies!

I said I will play NL2 one month, and after one month I will deposit $250 and move to NL5. It doesn't matter how much I win or lose in NL2 during this one month, but I am quite sure it is a winning month. I think yes, it will be something like 5k hands... maybe up to 10k hands if I play more or want to play more. 10stacks up in a month would indeed be lovely

Maybe one day I am at NL100 and then when I could get +10stacks it would be +$1000! Yay!

MTTs I don't play for time reasons yes, I don't have them in my schedule. I used to be a SNG player a little bit and I could win them and I know how to play them, but I don't that at the moment.

My family is so amaxzing for me, they let me play but yea, MTTs would be crazy and its not in the plan at the moment.

the life rhythm is crazy, you wouldn't believe what it is over here... my dear one my partner is doing really awesome stuff.. it's almost like not possible what it is. so today we took our two children, go to this place where they accept old metal, rent their car stuff for free, you know the one you put to the back of a car to put stuff in. my partner bought a car. my grandpa sometimes sends us money. so anyway, we take old metal from two old farmhouses, i pick up like 900kg metal today. it was all my partners initiative. she is buying a new smaller house also. so we do this metal picking from our two places together with kids. we load it off and she gets 177eur or something. it is amazing her plan. you know at the metal place, they had this huge machine trashing whole cars and picking them up. also picking up huge metal stuff with magnet.

anyway what I wanted to say, life rhythm changes so much with kids. you just spend time with them or something. i was able to LEARN like 20minutes this morning but couldnt play of course, they wake up so fast even if you wake up before them. and after the metal thing we were so tired today. so now in the evening i LEARN again 1 hour, but dont have the energy to play yet.

rare that children are sleeping and you are not ♦ she gets them sleep so well.. somehow. i am gettting my energy back and motivation after a period of depression, and i do keep regular small yoga rhythm now every morning. so this trains me stronger.

huge fan of Vanessa Selbst after listening to one of her coaching videos. I really go poker professional now. It might be ridiculous to some of you that I say it here, you know, playing NL2, but this is what I am going to do with my life. I now know. So I now say it out.

I was like a boy having fun with pirated PT3, looking to move up... the difference between pirating and buying is the professional mindset. there's always like this thief lurking around stealing stuff not taking it deep or serious... afraid of police inside.... I know what it is.

So I now made this decision. Let's see where it takes me

Its awesome to see you back in the game mate, look forward to see what you can do with NLHE, there should be a lot more possibilities than with LHE

Damlqv thanks, I am happy to be part of this. What I sometimes don't get, was like this attitude: you need to earn this and this amount of $$$ in a month. I personally have never had that attitude, however, I do consider myself satisfied and succesful in life... in my own way. For me, it was always like fun...

I think yes, people make bigger mistakes maybe in NLHE... but I would say, fish was losing fast in both games. What I find, in NLHE, you can actually bluff them off a midpair or lower with a bet ♦ While in FL they would always call. So if I learn from coaching vids, they also teach how to pick good spots to bluff and what to look for.

Maybe I got approached like by grown-ups fast who wish I would also think like them... I do think it is possible to actually get better and more responsible grown-up way inside...