Hey Guys, I'm here, not dead yet
I had a lot of private things to sort out, and now I'm back. I also started to play around 1am, run like shit, and for like 2 weeks I wasn't playing my A or B game, so it was pretty rough. The good thing is that I worked after that shitty sessions every time, a lot of times till like 10.am.
POKERSTARS 11.month

What can I say, we were down over 8k in one point, I was losing every value hand mostly on river by some shitty gutters, or they get like 5 times biger set deep on the river(where I had top set on the flop in 3bet pots).
14 times KK on AA(and I won 1), I had 1time AA on KK(I won
), 15times I run AK,AKs into AA(lost every single one)-most was a steal positions, 2 times I got AA on AKo and I lost once(but also won once too
).
Every pot deep with my overpairs in 4b pots(KK ,AA) I lost. You get ideal flop, good turn, and if the river is 10 they have 1010, if its J, they have JJ,etc.

It wasn't easy to work after that type of sessions till morning, but I did, just think after 5 hours of play, you go to pio and run even that 10bb pots after you lost a bunch. 
Every session I had a book where I had write all the spots (even the one that would feel insignificant later), where I didn't know or wasn't sure what to do in every part of the hand (with my range or my hand), and later I had gone through all of that spots, wasn't pretty, wasn't enjoying it that much, but yeah, momments like that define you, they make you or break you. Breaking was never an option...
Situation was similar to SuperSport poker:

What smart can I say..Imagine this, you are playing against at least 4, or even 5 worst players in history of a mindkind, that play from 80-99% of range based on positions (yup they tend to be little tighter from EP :P) Their folding freq. for most of them are like 10% flop 15% turn, and around 20% on the river, they fold to a 3b between 0-15%), and everytime you 3barell they have 2pair+(and you have AA or KK, and the board is like 2694Q, freq of 2pair should be basically non-exitence, yup but they would have something like 49s- calling a SQ, just insane.
Also they would call my bluffs with like bottom of the bottom range, I felt like they were Phil fk Ivey. We were again down over 25k in one point.
I just continue fighting, working, and learning, when things go south also new horizons open, you see even the smallest things that can really be huge, that can improve you, you may never notice it before. We get back and even finish winning the month that was disgusting. After all shit that happened, I will take it as a win.
Let's go through some good stuff. Croatia is in quarterfinals of the WC!
I basically watched all the games, I love football, and I love my country, so it was my duty
Also I have a sick feeling that we will play the best game against Brasil, even kick them out, I have really a strong feeling it's gonna happen.
We are continuing the PokerStrategy video series, it's time for nl25! I'm really motivated, feel better then ever before, and ready to give you guys best of me, let's crush this limit together, and help you to do it alone also. I'll try to be better, I have more experience now, again I'm open to your input, give your thoughts, ideas, advices, what you want to improve etc. This is for you, and I want it to be best possible. Also I'll try to make streams at least 1-2 times a week.
Basically that are my goals for this months, and I want to start the new year strong and go and crush the High stakes in a new year!
Btw.who didn't see it- join by discord: https://discord.com/invite/6ybPhejzhw
I'm available 24h/7 ,there are a lot of good players there, we talk about hands and strategy, and everybody is welcome, also I will be making giveaways through it.
I'm also thinking about ocasional "Zoom live stream", it seems a lot of guys are interesting in that, so we can do it sometimes.
Because I was starting to play late last month I had to put in some zoom 200 tables.
I felt really good, the pool was small(30-40players) cos it was like 4am mostly. And I knew most of them from regular tables. So it felt like normal tables.

See ya soon!