Another kind of "winning"
Last week, when I had a really really bad cold, I, unfortunately could not afford to just lie in bed and recover: I had to work, because last Friday there was an important deadline. So, I wrote an article and made statistics with quite a bad sniffles! It took me longer than usual, because you can guess that my concentration was not the best. 
After working through the chaotic statistics (see above "being a statistician"), I somehow managed to write the corresponding article for a customer. As this person is a really good customer (and the job is well paid), I gave the best I had. But with the sniffles? How good can my work be? Normally, I´m confident, but not with a bad cold! 
This week I found out that this customer is very happy with my work! Phew! :f_biggrin::profit: Even with a bad cold I could do some "magic" and that´s important - not a poker downswing.
I started this challenge just for fun! As a hobby! Because: Why not?
I don´t have to do this - unlike my last week´s work
I don´t have to do this to myself, but I want! During my forced poker break I remembered that I don´t have to grind up from 0 € to 1.000 € within two years or so! I started with 0 € in 2024 and had a lot of fun building a BR from scratch. I don´t have to win every week! I don´t have to grind 10 K hands every week! I can take it easy if I want to. But nevertheless, a downswing gets to you, no matter how well you know the statistics!
But it´s a hobby! I can play freerolls if I like! I can try a new variant, if I like, as I´m back on Pokerstars. There is a huge choice of different games, so why not? I´m also on 888 and there is traffic on PLO2! So why not? Why not taking some time to learn PLO?
To be honest: During my common cold, I was quite relieved that I had an "excuse" not to play poker. I was also a bit relieved that I had a VERY good reason not to play tennis. I think I just needed some quiet time. This is the main reason for me to re-start running. Because it gives me some quiet time in nature! Reality of BR building hits me like a truck: It´s actually hard work! VERY hard work, especially mentally! And therefore, I need some quiet time in between the sessions! It´s mandatory!
Why not quality before quantity? Especially when the cards just don´t wanna go your way!
It is no shame to play smaller sessions (one hour f.e.), but with maximum quality! That´s what I´m going to do! At the moment I´m sooooo fed up with Holdem! I´m soooo fed up with MTTs! Why not trying something new? Why not discovering new ways, new variants, new statistics?! I don´t have to complete this BR challenge within two months or six months, right? I have time ....