Woah. I was thinking about going to bed since I need to get up at 4:30 but I just can't help but getting... into thinking mode.
For those interested my internship at a mental hospital starts tomorrow. I will have 2-4 hours of travel daily and a 9-10 hour shift, so needless to say I won't have any energy left over for any A-gaming.
I'm not really sure about how I will react to it though to be honest. I mean, atm I feel like... excited/worried/scared and everything at once.
Basically noone there is admitted from free will, they have all been admitted by force for their own good. I had to give them my social security number in advance, and will only be let in after showing ID etc, so it's a quite guarded departement. My tutor or whatever to call her (the woman who will be guiding/teaching me) told me they have a woman in lockdown. She is always guarded by 2 male workers and is only allowed to take a walk once a day within the fences of the yard, and is guarded by 3 male workers during that walk.
I don't really know what to expect, nor do I know how I will react to it. I do know one thing, the shifts allone and the traveling time will make me damn exhausted. Hopefully though, it will be a oppertunity for me to really challange myself and get stronger. Having to deal with something like this is something that not many people get to do in their lives and is something that is very challanging and demanding imo.
It will take alot of mental strengt, and I definitely see it as a oppertunity to grow. I mean the worst that can happen is that I fail, and that's not really bothering. All I can do is my best
The challange will be to find ways for myself to not fail. To deal with whatever issues or feelings this brings up for me. So yea. Excited, scared, worried. But in a good way.
Wish me luck! ♦
xx vonki