Long time no see guys!
So it's been a rough year poker wise....had to withdraw pretty much everything due to some unexpected RL issues. Didn't play at all for around 2 months. No internet and no time at all. Left myself a small ammount just to be able to play again. And it went horrible once i started playing again....
FT is rigged...♦ PERIOD! Rigged ♦ I'm close to busto, well, not busto, but I barely have enough to play RUSH NL5 comfortably. And considering how I've been running for the last month I should probably avoid playing at all...
My confidence is crushed, my BR is crushed, my determination and will to play and improve has sunk and it's hard to get back on track. Guess going down to nl2 and grinding it up slowly is for the best. Will see how it will work out.
I'm on a break from cash games for a few days, just playing those rush on demand tourneys and I hate them too. It's like every tourney is the same. Play smart, build up your stack and then lose KK<A2o, QQ<AK and AK<QQ to bust out around the bubble or to mincash. It was so much easier when those tournies were 135 ppl.
Meh, rant rant rant....it's all I do lately. Don't know what to do. I know I'm not a fish and I know I'm not crushing the tables. But it just hurts so much to be in the red after every session due to everyone hitting their 2-3 outers or outdrawing me.
If anyone is reading this, advice needed. What to do, how to handle it or just plain old comforting will do.
Maybe I should try to find someone and make a coaching deal. Never really given it much thought but it might be a great thing to turn things around. Just need to think about everything for a while.
Cheers