[Closed] You just got knocked out

Hi,

My name is Andrei. I am from Romania and i am 27 Yo.
First to explain the title... I use to play 3.30$ 90 man SNG KO on full tilt, and I feel such a rush whenever I knockout somebody.
So... Let's take it from the beginning.
I believe it is 4 or 5 years since i first started to play online poker. I was working at an internet cafe and I played for fun just to have something to fill up my time during long nights, and not go to sleep.
I even won a freeroll on PartyPoker for 20$, but I ended by loosing all the money at the Party Casino.
During the years I think I deposited about 100-150$ on various sites. Oh I realise now how big a fish I was However I didn't loose all that money because I had a good post flop play, but I was playing way too many hands with dominated cards and I believe that's the reason I was BE for the last 5 years.
I wasn't loosing, but I wasn't winning either, so the poker virus didn't get to me I was playing 2-3 hours for fun every 2 or 3 months when I remembered I had an online poker account.
I discovered this site about 3 months ago thanks to a colleague at work, and man I was up for a shock.
A whole new world opened up in front of my eyes. I wonder where would I have been now if I found this site 3 years ago.

So... I registered on PS sometime in February and received my starting capital on FullTilt.
Busted almost all my bankroll on rush. Interesting phenomenon this rush thing, however, cash games weren't my favorite games to begin with.
I consider myself to be a MTT guy, however I use to play well first couple of hours in a tournament, then i start to loose focus and spew chips on the tables.
So I focused myself towards 90 men SNGs which last only about 2 hours, where I feel I can play my A-game.

I deposited 70$ on the 1st of March mainly in order to receive rakeback and to complete the remaining of my starting capital from PS to about 100$.
I still played rush in order to release my first deposit bonus quicker. Lost about 30$ on the way, but ended up with a 40$ profit from the first deposit bonus.
I started playing 90 man SNGs KO 3.30$ and 54 man super turbo 2.70$. Caught an upswing and surged to about 300$. Caught an ugly downswing and got down to 120$.
I cashed out all my money thinking that that's enough poker for me, and maybe this isn't just my thing.
However I still had about 2500 FTPs left and I wanted to spend it all in order not to be tempted to play poker ever again.
I bought 3 step 1 tickets and sat down at a step1 HU table. Funny thing I managed to get 2 step 3 tickets which i played in 24+2 $ matrix SNGs and won about 110$
I cashed out another 60$ and I said I will give it another go with a 50$ starting capital.
Dumped the 2.70$ super turbo SNGs as the variance is just too high in these tournaments and I concentrated strictly on the 3.30$ 90 man KOs.
I also started attending the coaching with monsterducati, our Romanian trainer for SNG KO which helped improve my game a lot (that was 2 weeks ago).

I realise my BRM sucked playing 3.30$ SNGs with 50$ in my account, however I managed to turn them in to a nice profit and I stand now on a 270$ bankroll.
I think I even play worse then when I had only 16 buyins because having 80 buyins to back me up makes my game a bit looser then I would like too. I think I will somehow have to trick my mind that I only have 16 buyins to spare in order to tighten up my game

I don't even know what realistic goals I have to set because I haven't given it a thought. I just started typing 45 minutes ago and haven't stopped since
I'll come back later with a post in which I will set my goals for the rest of the month.
I hope you will enjoy this at least as much as I do...

Good luck at the tables,

Andrei