Played 1.5K hands of 5cd last night and ran very badly indeed (fh<fh, QQQ<KKK,888<999, all for lots of $$$). However, I felt that I mainly played well, and only lost $80 by the end. I feel like I'm starting to be a bit less ABC. I managed to successfully c/r bluff someone who stood pat ('He must have a full house, mustn't he? errrrrrr *tank fold* ♦ ) and also tried varying my bet sizes a bit more to get the desired result. There were a couple of regs who I felt had picked up on my 'small bet size = thin value' tell, and were raising these bets suspiciously often. To counter this I switched to 'big bet for thin value' for a bit to try to get bluffcaught, but, fml, they'd made their hand each time. And just to cap it off, my computer hibernated automatically at 10pm because of the stupid power saving software the University forces me to have on it (just missed the 'don't do it!' button), at precisely the moment that I filled up after calling a UTG raise. And Poker Heaven still won't work properly despite assurances from support that there's been a patch. Just not my night. A weaker professor might have tilted. I confined myself to several real life facepalms and some big sighs.
I've read more than half of The Mental Game of Poker now, and, particularly after last night's session, I think I can say that if I do tilt, it's subtle, and mainly mild Mistake Tilt (Jared's capitals, not mine). What I am finding useful is the stuff about the Adult Learning Model (Conscious Competence, Unconscious Competence, etc). It makes a lot of sense to me, and I am trying to mentally systematise what I know I know and know I don't know, and what I do correctly automatically and what I don't.
Ballet exam today! No, not for me. I think my plie is too rusty for that.