Let me start off with saying that I went bankrupt today. Meaning I lost the 50$ given to me by this site.
Today was a special day for me, I realized that no matter how good you play you will get owned. I have only played poker online with real money for a week since I got the 50$ bonus. In the first 1 and a half hours of play I made 34$ and thought that my poker career was on its way. Then I made some bad decisions and went down to 20$ then back up to 94$ after correcting my tilted play and my bankroll management, then the shit hit the fan.
I got bad beats whereever I went. Today I joined a 20$ SNG (I know that I shouldn't have, but w/e). I have Q4, flop 4 4 7. Two raises after I go all in get called, with one guy calling with 4 6, practically drawing dead, turn 8 and river 5 ( after the hand one guy said he had pocket 5's, that means there were 2 5's left in the deck, go figure) The biggest and one of the worst beats I have ever taken.
The day continues during two hands I catch flushes on the flop, then on the turn a card with the same suit comes on, making the other guy a higher flush.
Another hand I catch a flush, get beaten by a fullhouse. Another hand I have two hearts, all the next five cards are hearts, after I put my money in the pot. Get beaten out by two guys also holding 2 hearts each, that's right between us three we only had hearts, that's 11 hearts, counted it, what the hell are the chances ( I had a Q high flush by the way)
There were also countless hands of two pair getting beaten by a straight and such garbage I will not even list.
Finally by bankrupt hand, I have AK the other guy has KQ, flop nothing, turn K, you guessed it, river Q. ♦
I know that there's such a thing as selective memory, usually people only remember beats against them, but I have counted the bad beats I have put on people and I have had only 1 huge bad beat, when for a straight I hit a 4 outer on the river.
Please tell me how after getting smashed on every possible hand and especially my last one, how can I keep playing poker online? Please provide some advice, and support. By now I believe that online poker is just a bad joke.
P.S. If anyone knows how I can get any other bonus money from this site or any other, please show me a way, because I know that I am a good player it's that luck has not been on my side.

