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Tim64
Joined: 03.11.2008

Just accidentally deleted half page of sad blues-filled ranting about running bad.

Probably just as well.

Leito99 received the first part of his free coaching today and I hope he got as much out of it as I did -- jolly good player; he will go far.

Kind of funny how I thought I was in a deep hole when I instigated that competition in the first place. My measly 55 bi below EV now dwarfed by a crater two and a half times as deep. 135 below and counting.

Can't believe I'm still complaining about this particular spate of run bad. I'm beginning to bore even myself, so god knows what you poor creatures must be thinking. :rolleyes:


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Originally posted by Tim64
Just accidentally deleted half page of sad blues-filled ranting about running bad.

Probably just as well.

Leito99 received the first part of his free coaching today and I hope he got as much out of it as I did -- jolly good player; he will go far.

Kind of funny how I thought I was in a deep hole when I instigated that competition in the first place. My measly 55 bi below EV now dwarfed by a crater two and a half times as deep. 135 below and counting.

Can't believe I'm still complaining about this particular spate of run bad. I'm beginning to bore even myself, so god knows what you poor creatures must be thinking. :rolleyes:

You have the right to complain about it, believe me if I say better days will come. Just try not to let thoughts like "this can't be happening" and "will this ever end" get into your mind too much, no matter how tough it may be. Knowing about running 100 or 200BI below EV is not the same as actually experiencing it, but it's a game where some part of luck is involved, you are just experiencing the worst of it over the last months.

I know this is all really cliche but it's also the truth.

P.S Sent u a request in the community tool.


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dydukas
Joined: 01.05.2009

Why not just have tons of rakeback at Ongame and never care about the winning? Shorthanded games there have plenty of traffic on the $54s and even above. I know you're not multitabling alot, the shitty software there shouldn't be such of a problem for you. IMHO, better value for you even if you're destined to run bad.

I'm a fan of Ongame. Just my opinion. :)


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Originally posted by Demonic226

Originally posted by Tim64
you are just experiencing the worst of it over the last months.

I know this is all really cliche but it's also the truth.

P.S Sent u a request in the community tool.

Last months? Last half year or so lol. Tim64 i admire your ability to keep grinding it out and keep being happy about your decision to play poker professionally. Keep playing well sir, and good luck :)


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dydukas
Joined: 01.05.2009

Originally posted by MathhNes

Originally posted by Demonic226

Originally posted by Tim64
you are just experiencing the worst of it over the last months.

I know this is all really cliche but it's also the truth.

P.S Sent u a request in the community tool.

Last months? Last half year or so lol. Tim64 i admire your ability to keep grinding it out and keep being happy about your decision to play poker professionally. Keep playing well sir, and good luck :)

No offense but I'll just laugh at your comment.

Not last months, not half an year, but the whole pro career. This is the first beginner pro blog which I've been following thoughtlessly. And he's been running bad all the way.

I'm not gonna say again I admire the effort, not gonna wish better luck, not gonna say anything motivational. Just that I'm a fan of Tim for what he's been through as a pro (and with a family).


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not trying to be a downer tim, but you should probably concentrate more energy into your game and less into the EV line. When I was running bad I made a few small prop bets to go for X days without looking at results. Your happiness would increase if you did something similar. best of luck.


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Originally posted by dydukas

Originally posted by MathhNes

Originally posted by Demonic226

Originally posted by Tim64
you are just experiencing the worst of it over the last months.

I know this is all really cliche but it's also the truth.

P.S Sent u a request in the community tool.

Last months? Last half year or so lol. Tim64 i admire your ability to keep grinding it out and keep being happy about your decision to play poker professionally. Keep playing well sir, and good luck :)

No offense but I'll just laugh at your comment.

Not last months, not half an year, but the whole pro career. This is the first beginner pro blog which I've been following thoughtlessly. And he's been running bad all the way.

I'm not gonna say again I admire the effort, not gonna wish better luck, not gonna say anything motivational. Just that I'm a fan of Tim for what he's been through as a pro (and with a family).

I'm just trying to talk some faith into the guy, so laugh all you want. I said this because I really know how it feels to run this bad over a long period of time, and I know that it sometimes helps to get you to feel a bit better. Ok, so I made a mistake by saying "last months".


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dydukas
Joined: 01.05.2009

Originally posted by Demonic226

Originally posted by dydukas

Originally posted by MathhNes

Originally posted by Demonic226

Originally posted by Tim64
you are just experiencing the worst of it over the last months.

I know this is all really cliche but it's also the truth.

P.S Sent u a request in the community tool.

Last months? Last half year or so lol. Tim64 i admire your ability to keep grinding it out and keep being happy about your decision to play poker professionally. Keep playing well sir, and good luck :)

No offense but I'll just laugh at your comment.

Not last months, not half an year, but the whole pro career. This is the first beginner pro blog which I've been following thoughtlessly. And he's been running bad all the way.

I'm not gonna say again I admire the effort, not gonna wish better luck, not gonna say anything motivational. Just that I'm a fan of Tim for what he's been through as a pro (and with a family).

I'm just trying to talk some faith into the guy, so laugh all you want. I said this because I really know how it feels to run this bad over a long period of time, and I know that it sometimes helps to get you to feel a bit better. Ok, so I made a mistake by saying "last months".

As I've said, no offense or anything. Really. :)


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BOBOsvk
Joined: 14.02.2010

switch to MTT SNGs, no ev line, just bad run


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dydukas
Joined: 01.05.2009

Originally posted by BOBOsvk
switch to MTT SNGs, no ev line, just bad run

No shitloads of rb there?


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Tim64
Joined: 03.11.2008

Hey guys, thanks as always for commenting on my blog. It really does help and I have a smile on my face right now.

Got one more day of grinding before I'm off on holiday for 10 days during which I sincerely believe I will forget about all this for a while and concentrate on family, food and fun.

1. Thanks for the suggestions of other sites. I have an hourly of $20/hr or so (theoretically) at Party which is decent enough and I don't want to have to get used to new software or foes right now.

2. <3, you are right, of course. I'm not really that unhappy, just a bit frustrated. But, yes, when I get back from holiday I need to work, once again, on my mindset.

3. Just for wallowing's sake, here is the first 2000 games at Party:


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thazar
Joined: 14.09.2009

Originally posted by lessthanthreee
not trying to be a downer tim, but you should probably concentrate more energy into your game and less into the EV line. When I was running bad I made a few small prop bets to go for X days without looking at results. Your happiness would increase if you did something similar. best of luck.

Hi Tim

I was going to say the same thing. That EV line is really not helping you. It is just depressing. just take it off the reports and concentrate on your game. Don't worry if you run bellow EV, it like a huge bad beat and there is nothing you can do about it. So let it go and keep working on your game.


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Tim64
Joined: 03.11.2008

Finished the run-up to my vacation on a small high point. Got something close to my EV for once:

@Thazar, thank you, but you'll have to trust me when I tell you that the red line is the only thing keeping me sane at the moment :)

Anyway, here is a picture of a bucket and spade.

Going to take my $350 profit for August, pretend it's the $1100 I should have after six days work, and spend it on all the imaginary calamari and sangria I can think of.

Have fun while I'm away and if anyone sees my lost EV lying around, could they notify lost property?

:heart: :heart: :heart:
-Tim64


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running so bad means that you run so good in another point of your life.Anyway i really admire you mentality and i hope i can work so well with my downswings too


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Tim64
Joined: 03.11.2008

Relieved to find the poker world still turning on my return from Spain, although predictably no progress on FTP... However, it was our fifth wedding anniversary yesterday and Mrs Tim64's parents were kind enough to send us a little something while we were away, which was a delightful surprise on our return.

It was a very good break with my loved ones at the family's villa on the Costa Blanca, roughly halfway between Valencia to the north and Alicante to the south.

The first half of the holiday was excellent health-wise; I felt really relaxed and loose. Unfortunately swimming breaststroke in the pool in the second half caused some of the old problems to return meaning things were a bit marred by pain in my left pectoral.

Party was good enough to welcome me back from my vacation with a $500 reload bonus. As far as I can make out (and having deposited the required $500) I don't need to do anything other than play my normal games and I should gain another 16.6% rakeback over the next month and a half.

Health troubles aside I think my mindset has benefited from the break. I'm trying to look at this year, starting August, as just that: a YEAR. I really shouldn't be worrying about running badly month-to-month or even for longer periods. All that matters is my profit for the year, taken as a whole. To that end, I am going to try to refrain from posting graphs for individual days which (as I should know by now) are frankly meaningless. I might make an exception if I ever manage to win or lose $1000 in a single day!

Anyway, for those of you who might be wondering what your faithful scribe looks like in the flesh, here he is: (the one on the left, loyally wearing his PS.com Diamond T-shirt, aka "where is my endorsement deal???")


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akrammon
Joined: 17.05.2009

zomfg that little person on the right is sooooo cute!!!!!!! trust me I don't say (or type) this word often!


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akrammon
Joined: 17.05.2009

and welcome back :) glad to see the mindset improvement :)


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Tim64
Joined: 03.11.2008

Originally posted by akrammon
zomfg that little person on the right is sooooo cute!!!!!!! trust me I don't say (or type) this word often!

Tyvm, but what about me???


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exactly how i imagined you. except without your monocle and top hat.


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Tim64
Joined: 03.11.2008

Originally posted by lessthanthreee
exactly how i imagined you. except without your monocle and top hat.

monocle gets scratched by the sand, so I leave it at home.


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