And in the end I'm just getting really tired of the competition factor in poker.
I'm insanely competitive, sports, esports etc. I just need to know I'm better than someone.
Sometimes wonder if I'd be a total asshole or how many resources I'd have to spend on suppressing that side of me IRL heh
I guess not everyone's like that
the mental swings are not worth it, the player field is getting tougher and even is if you master the game or have a huge edge, this is no guarantee for winning at poker.
There never was, it's a big part of the game - poker's very unique in this that it's both high variance, skillgame AND a closed system (on -table variance is what I mean ofc sites can go under etc. but you can pre-empt that with BRM). Unlike trading, where you get Black Swanned all over the place.
I'm going to actually talk about this on https://forums.pokerstrategy.com/forum/thread.php?threadid=500767
- The Poker Mental game industry is built around injecting logic, changing your subconscious understanding of variance, taking breaks even hypnotherapy and various other techniques etc.
It's possible going TOWARDS the states you feel during the swings instead and learning just one skill - emotional flexibility and cognitive defusion. You can actually actively feel joy from the feelings tilt brings, go towards them and then do the right thing anyways with enough practice.
People start to play like robots more and more, it is more like a fight for chips and as a result, the social factor of the game is diminishing as time progresses. (the social factor is also a fun factor for me)
The way you socialise has changed. You'd have big brag hands and outplays before, bad beat stories etc.
Now it's a bunch of guys running a sim and spending hours and hours arguing about the interpretation and practical implementation vs real life people and pulling out concepts.
And then discussing mental game and life skills like sleep investments even supplements lol. Time sure have changed
I mean I come from academia and although the old school poker talk had it's charm, this is different, and imo even more fun than before, as there's always new stuff to understand. Although certainly painful initially before you can "think solver" and understand the software before you get to have fun. I felt the same in my international Economics class though heh. I guess this isn't fun for you.
EDIT: I'm talking about deep poker variants. It won't be nearly as much fun in MTTs and SNGs I guess.
don't quote me on this though, ICM donkey here.
By playing poker you add NOTHING to society, NOTHING to improve the world we live in, it's just chasing money, which in the end is very dull, selfish and hollow.
It's hard to enjoy the game if your primary goal is to chase money. Well at least short term money.
I think almost all long term pros realized that +EV life hours are equally as important as grind+study time. Purely because spending 1k hours/year on meditation, socialising, working out and self-development like reading, therapy etc. might seem like a waste in the short run,
But the alternative is
- burnouts where you both lose shitloads of money before you realize and then have to take long breaks
- having to quit altogether (happened to a LOT of people)
Thank you for the post by the way, gave me some nice input for Tuesday
- we'll focus on values and emotional flexibility quite a bit. If you swing by in chat as your last hurrah it'd be nice