Whats up guys? thx for feedback kyyberi. Sure might have been but not what I planned and it bothered me tha I can still make such a stupid mistakes.
From now on I will have this blog separated to 3 parts: Health, poker and mindset. The reason for this is that some people might not care about some aspects of it and are here solely only for poker stuff or some play different format and might just come for inspiration in mindset department. This way everyone can just look at what they are interested. Of course there will be some overlays because everything is connected.
Health
In this are I am very satisfied this week I made some changes that were huge compared to the past few months :f_thumbsup:. After long time without any kind of exercise I decided to work out or at least move a bit which minimum for me was at least warm up and stretching from rushfit if not an actual work out) every day. Proudly I can say that not one day happened when I only did warm up and streched myself but always put at least some kind of work out between. It wasnt any hard work out but still I made myself promise and I am glad I kept it.:f_cool:
Highlights of the week was on Thursday when I decided to instead of going running my usual I went to other city where I usualy go by car or on bike with ym dog for a swim. I never been there by foot and it is around 8,5-10 km. Dont get it worng I wasnt running whole way I had to switch between walking and running but still a big goal for beginning and I was feeling it. It took me around 1hour and 10 minutes to get there and my work out didnt end there. I stretched myself and went to a pond for one hour swim in which I was keeping myself bit from shore so there is no rest in form of touching ground. This part of work out was good for me because I always loved water so it didnt seem like a problem and actually was quite a fun. Another thing I was making it much easier than the run was that I had ride home arranged. I made my hour and was really proud and swam to shore. The second I touched the ground oh I got cramps to both of my calves and had to keep floating and stretching my legs for like 4minutes in high pain and trying to strech my legs so the cramps go away. luckily it was ok and I dint get any cramps no more. Only downside of this was that for that day and the other one I was very fatigued and it of course influenced poker a bit.
Other good changes I made was in my diet I dont drink anything sweet at all anymore except one glass of orange juice half with water that still haunts me as a mistake. Even food I eat is much healthier now. I used to throw bread on frying pan then an egg and eat it together and it is really delicious. I decided to change it because I made it too foten and frying everything I would not end up well so now I actually eat normal bread and boiled eggs instead this. Some other changes like this I made but it would be too long to put it all here.
Poker
Poker was quite good week too from my part but some stuff also happened that in that moment I couldnt do anything about but should have think about it earlier so I still have to work on ymself to improve in this area. That said I made some profit this week but didnt went to 50 anymore as I burned there lot of money this month and I have to prepare for some other expenses next month. My volume this week was really good. One day I even had 8 of play + studying and others was around 6-7+ studying. Exception was monday on which I put only 4,5hours and friday in which I was super tired played bad and site had lot of troubles. I wanted to put 6 hours but in the end that day I had like 3 because it had so many disconnection it was unreal and making me feel even more tired than I was. ♠_cool:
Few things I realized I need to change if I want to make it. 1. I calculated that I have around 400USD expenses and that doenst cover anything unexpected. So to make it on 25 I need around 4bb/100 (including rakeback) to make that. Not impossible but still even if I make it I dont have any room to take shots etc and I would be stuck so I need to get somewhere some more money. First thing came to mind was volume sure I coudl paly more tables more hours and get at least 50k hands a month but when I thought about it I dont think it is best solution as it puts more stress on me and not really effective. 2.nd thing that poped up was to improve my WR which woudl also decrease variance more than just increasing volume.
I though it will be alright taking shots to 50 because I was promised good rakeback from ym affiliate. What I dindt knwo is that GG works on PVI system and ofc grinders will have muhc worse rakeback tehre so in the end I got much elss than I was hoping for when I was taking those aggressive shots.
I decided I will make both of those things but combined and focus more on improving winrate. I think I dont study enough and that has to change. I joined PLO mastermind and will take it from there. I am not sure how I will like it or how my financial situation will be but for now I plan on taking one month focus on studying a lot and second month go at it myself and grind hard.
Another thing I must fix is the problem with site. Last three days it is really fucking my progress and I cant do anything about it. So I need to find a back up site and I am thinking about microgaming so already contacted my affiliate etc to sort it out. This is something I shoudl have do long ago and now it hinders my progress so again quite mad about myself. ♠_evil:
Mindset
In this area I am super happy about myself and my progress this week. I was improving my mindset for some time now and it was good but this week was really blast for me. I am still listening to audio book can't hurt me by david goggins and it is such a powerful stuff man can't even wrap my head around it. Honestly how I am now I think my mindset is best it ever was and it is something when considered I am physically most out of shaped in my life and my financial situation isnt great either. But honetsly first time in my life I feel like I can do everything and really got drive for it that I think will last for long time and is sustainable.
Mostly what I am working on is the challenges from the book and repeating them and trying to think about them in depths to get most of it and I just feel such a progress that it is just crazy.
I am at 5th challenge now so gonna write here those before too.
1. write about your own life. Basically an essay about how unfair your life was what hardships you had etc. And honestly didnt know what is the goal of this challenge but of course I did it and thing in the end was funny that I realized it is not much stuff and I am just a crying baby. Especially comapred to the stuff in a book. I mean what david goggins survived just in his childhood is just huge and I am here complaining about stuff like my brother was always stronger and beat me etc.
2. was accountability mirror. Here you are very hoenst with yourself and say stuff like you are fat etc and just being brutally tough and honest with yourself. Mine has notes there so I keep looking at it and keep pushing myself. I have 4 notes so far and that is that I am SOFT (easy to use some excuse for me not finishing task I take upon myself etc) FAT (I mean tehre is not much to explain I look as shrek and my health is a joke) AFRAID (again kinda clear just worry too much and dont make bold decisions) and that my WORK ETHIC isnt what it should be (basically lazy). Great thing is that if you are honest you find out WHY you want those things and it needs to be something deep you desire because when struggle comes it will drive you through it
3. step outside your comfort zone. One of the harder but very important challenges imo. In my case it means to make more stuff inside the house for my parents etc running even if it rains trying to increase number of tables I play and to keep my environment clean alway which I struggle most because I am pretty messy
4. taking souls. Worst challenge for me and didnt find the right way how to do it yet. Point is to take something competitive and totaly destroy your enemy and show them something they never saw. Completely outdo yourself and overcome the expectation as much as you can. for example if boss gives you task to call 15 clients call 50. If your professor makes you to do project do some extra research even though fro an A it is not necessary. My problem here is that I dont have anything liek boss I dont study not palying sports anymoreand crushing my own soul is not good way to do it ♦. In a way I actually made it to my mom because she always wants to lose weight but lets face it is lazy to start doing something. When I started working out and she was picking me up after my swimming I saw on her how bad she feels I do so much even though it is my first week after long time of not doing anything. But again my mom isnt someone I want to do this on so honestly my only idea is to do it to readers of my blog and my challenge will eb to surprise you with ym determination and work ethic and take your souls!♠_evil:
5. visualization. I think this is nothing new to most of us but definitely very important thing to do if you want to be succesful at anything. One thing which was new for me from this book was to visualize not only what I need to do and the success but also those obstacles that may come like variance injuries etc. (in his book he said when he took his challenge to run ultra marathon 100 miles he said he planned for feeling pain by that mark feeling out of breath etc) and what is great about this is when it actually comes you dont panic so much in your mind and those questions that pop up like why am I doing this etc you already have answer prepared
Didnt got to 6th yet so more will come ♠_cool:
