Sexy Polish Millionaire. Baller Japan / Getting Ripped / Crush Poker

If you cant answer properly dont asnwer at all. I asked him if the course helped HIM and if he use it. If i wanted to ask you i would have post in your thread. I play too long to give me lecture for tilt

@belthazorrrr
00471 is right. I have acces on tilt free today course and I am working with it. Whining is not a problem for me. In Poland people tend to whine very very much. I whine once or twice a day. I am doing this exercise mostly because I like to get stuff done and prove myself that I can achieve what I want to achieve.

I feel shame that I have problems with tilt. I love my mindset. I am still learning new things. I don’t have any problems with motivation. I go to sleep when work is done. I am though and can do my job even in bad times. I can have depression, nihilism and still do my job. I adapt pretty fast. I love those things. My problem is aggression. When I am pissed I am search for pain. I throw things, swear out loud and punch desk etc. That’s fine I am not perfect, I’ll get rid of it. It wasn’t a problem before because I didn’t do what I do now. I had problems with emotional awareness I was very bad at it. You know it’s something like men don’t cry. Now I am working on it and I think it gets better.

I want to keep this blog personal and real. I am writing about those things to show you what struggles I have. I am sure I’ll get rid of that. I am in mindset group, we work on different issue, I am doing Gordon course and I am working with Tedler’s books. It’s only matter of time. I wasn’t good at it so it will take more time but I am going to do it.

Didn’t have problems with procatination for a loooooong loooooong time. Last three days I was procrastinate with cooking, cleaning room, washing etc. It took so much energy. I forgot how hard it is to procrastinate things. You think about them all the time and you can’t rest. It’s really exhausting. It’s so much easier to just do them on right time, but it’s not that simple, is it?

I think I am better at relaxing than I was. Today I had great time and can’t wait to play some poker tomorrow.

Originally posted by belthazorrrr
If you cant answer properly dont asnwer at all. I asked him if the course helped HIM and if he use it. If i wanted to ask you i would have post in your thread. I play too long to give me lecture for tilt

Are you some kind of Don Corleone? Because if you're not, it's just silly to tell me what to do or not to do. I'm a free man, you know. And if you were really interested in answers to your questions, you should've just skimmed through earlier pages of ilidek's blog. I was just kindly giving you known and available information. No need to be an a***ole about it.

Answer whatever you like. No more falling for trolls for me in this topic.

Very nice blog!

You wrote a few times about mindset exercise from/with your group... can u give an example of such an exercise? I have no clue how it could look like
Also about "improving my body regeneration" - what do u mean with that?

Originally posted by Kooort
Very nice blog!

You wrote a few times about mindset exercise from/with your group... can u give an example of such an exercise? I have no clue how it could look like

Thanks

For example we make:
Mental Hand History
Post Session Analysis
Warm Ups

From time to time we are making exercise like:
goals – the starting line
learning – the starting line

this week we are making:
self-discipline – the starting line
decision making process – the starting line
stop whinning bitch

and I am making qutuing from Gordon course

Originally posted by Kooort
Also about "improving my body regeneration" - what do u mean with that?

I am testing few things from bodybuilders and from elite athletes to improve body regeneration. It should help in poker as well. There are some supplements that improve brain work, when I’ll earn more cash I’ll definitely try them. It’s seems poker pro lifestyle is great to build huge muscle. Still I am learning and testing few things. If they’ll be helpful I’ll write more about them, now I’ll prefer to keep it in private

I was planing to stay at current place for three months anyway I think I’ll stay here for half a year. I’ll stay here longer because I get in touch with some of those meatheads from my gym. They are great, they have a lot of experience, they are huge and strong and they give me some tips. I am bigger than I ever was and I still feel weak and small. I can gain a lot of experience with them and learn how to become huge mother fucker. It’s much, much better to see how those people train than read some books. They give few tips and somehow force me to make harder training. I asked coach about have a look at my work out he added six exercise. I have hardcore (for nerd) training routine. I work out 4 times a week, I eat huge and yesterday I find out I have 36.5 cm in biceps for first time in my life. I think achieving 40cm in biceps in half a year is pretty real. I learned few things, I understood few things and I have much better work ethic than I had.

PS If someone is playing on unibet my friend have something special. More info in private.

I think I injured my shoulder. I saw guy who was bench pressing 220lbs (100kg) and told myself I want to do the same thing….. Long story short I did it with mega bad technique…. And I think something bad happen with my shoulder, again… It’s tilting that I did the same mistake once again…. Once again I forget that I have stronger mind than joints….

Today was running mega bad… I needed to play 3h with two guys who were winning every flip. They were bad but all the fucking time they hit something or river or won flip. My graph char should be twice as good today. Anyway I did cooler to one guy, it was fucking hilarious.

PS I need to repeat stop whining bitch once again… ♦

Originally posted by ilidek
PS I need to repeat stop whining bitch once again… ♦

I fear u will never win/complete the 10-days-no-complaining-challenge

@ Kooort
I am not worry about that. It will just take some time because I force myself to do things I don’t feel like and it lead to swearing and complaining sometimes. I am sure one day I’ll pass this challenge

I was going to write something more but I need to go to sleep. I am pretty exhausted.

Pretty demanding day. I was very tiered at 11PM and now it’s 3AM but I don’t go to sleep until my work is done. Was working with flopzilla and Gordon movies about cbeting. Flopzilla is hardcore boring for me after working with it 5 day in a row. Anyway I did commitment that I’ll do it every day and I’ll no doubt about it.

Last two weeks:

Was tilting. Was playing. I hate Gordon exercise about quitting I lose so much cash and time on it… I still need to do it 4 times more. I am afraid of watching his next two movies about quitting because I don’t want to find exercise like this again… Anyway it’s easier than no whining exercise

Hello, Pavel

Congrats with your great progress
You, Imachampion and Gordon are such a great motivation for myself.
We got something in common. When I was younger I used to waste my time playing computer games (World of Warcraft etc.) and I became fat and also shy, slohtful... 193 pounds (87 kg), 6 ft (183 cm). I was 16 .Thanks to my best athletic friend (who has also started grinding) I began to loose my weight slowly (jogging) and then started lifting Nowadays I´m 18 years old and I have lost 55 pounds (25 kg) of fat and gained 50 pounds of muscles (12% bodyfat) and I almost stopped lifting (a day per week, squats!) and started doing calisthenics (6 days per week)... I have achieved much but mine goal is slowly get to 220 pounds. With this shift of my life, I also became gregarious and diligent.
I´m just starting and because of lack of time (I can only give 4 hours per day to poker) I just can´t take it seriously, I want to become crazy machine :)... But in a month or so holidays are coming and then I will start my own blog, grind and invest into HU mastermind course. Before Gordon I was just FR sng lazy grinder. I´m really ambitious and I love challenges so I know I will make it.

I wanted to asked you, where do you create your work ethic? In which software? And Where and If could I join your mindset group?

Thanks for answers, and good luck with your tilt problems

Hey Matysek
I'll write you an answer tomorrow. Today I have a lot of work to do.

It seems tomorrow I won't have a free day. My laptop was fill up in water so I'll have a lot of work to do.

@ Matysek
I am glad we motivate you in all of those stuff. 220 pounds is also one of my goals. I have 205 lbs at that moment. Remember that 4 hours a day is still better than nothing. Those 4 hours can improve your mindset as well I mean coolers, bad beats all that crap.

I build my work ethic on achieving my other goals. My first goal was to going to gym for 6 months straight (with one week breaks after 8-12 weeks for regeneration). Going 3 times a week isn’t that hard so it was great thing to start with. Since beginning at the gym to moving out (except time when I injured my both shoulders so for 1.5 year) I skipped only one training. It was because I spend three days in bed with one girl. She was crazy, she bit me, she scratched me, I had some “remembrance” from her on my body for two or three weeks. Even though it was mega fucking awesome I am still a bit mad that I skipped this one training.

My second project was to learn 2 hours to uni every single day no matter what. I used to be bad at math and IT subjects back then so I did this project. High point was when I was drunk and on high it was 1.30AM and still 1.5 hours left to learning. I knew that if I am going give up now I’ll give something I was working on for such a long time so I was learning integrals high and drunk in the 1 AM for 1.5 hour. It was mega fucking insane because I was high and time passed very very very very very very very slow. It was mega boring back then I knew I won’t learn anything nor remember anything but it was about rules not about learning something new.

Second high point of this project was when my friend called and told me he needs to smoke before love of his life will join party, she was against weed and he told me he “must to be relax” when she comes. I was only one person with weed at that time (I checked it by calling to people who were joining this party) so I went there but still one hour of learning left. After last experience I told myself never ever again do this crap again. You won’t survive this again you must to do your work before that. Long story short all the people was having fun and I was learning in different room. Some of them told some jokes about it and told me that I can’t create my future. My pride still want to show those mother-fuckers that I can achieve whatever I want to achieve. I have huge pride when it comes to those stuff. Gordon told me two months ago that he’s afraid that I may quit because of a running bad or something and he doesn’t want to waste his time if this going to happen. I prove him otherwise one way or another that I am not guy like that, and he didn’t repeat it again but it still a pain in the ass for me and my pride still hurt a bit.

This pride works well because when I have hard times I remind myself all those people who was saying to me: “you can’t do it”, “you’ll fail”, “you can’t shape your destiny” and I think “FUCK YOU!!” and work harder. Still I need to learn how to get rid of pride while playing poker. Blog is my third project from Gordon challenge. My first project began two years ago.

About mindset group we don’t search for new people. If something will change I’ll write about it on blog

On the other blog they asked me about my day schedule I’ll write it here as well:
1) I wake up (10 AM) => turn on PC => morning bath + reading kindle
2) Sometimes I do some morning exercise
3) While preparing meal checking: “to do list” + adding something if needed ( I make “to do list” once a week and sometimes I need to add something) + start session review from last day all hands 20bb> I do it while eating.
4) Usually morning SR takes me ~1.5h sometimes I watch all hands on the table in the morning sometimes if I had a lot of 20bb> hands I do it latter on
5) Eating second meal + watching all hands at one table where I lost most cash and preparing for first session + preparing third meal.
6) Second session + meal while playing (now I have shorter sessions because I am doing Gordon exercise about quitting so sometimes it isn’t needed)
7) In days I work out (usually Monday Tuesday, Thursday, Friday ) gym In days I do not work out usually hang out with someone / visit father / preparing food / cleaning house.
8) Here it’s usually something like 7-9PM I ate 5 meals and I am preparing last one.
9) Eating last meal and preparing protein shake for last session of the day (usually 4-5 hour long )
10) Sleep around 3AM

In the meantime I am watching hand evaluation. Search random stuff in HM with potential leaks (sometimes I do voice notes while playing about some ideas) Reading something on my kindle. Waste some time on skype / stupid websites like 9gag and sometimes I change a place of different things in house just to play in find something I need…..
This is mostly how my day looks like. It change only at Sundays / Mondays when I have free days but then I have no plan. I hope you are happy with this answer.

Today I can’t complain about too much free time because I still didn’t end everything I wanted to and I haven’t break either. I’ll end it in an hour or two. I believe that obstacles are here to stop other people and that’s why because of those obstacles I have I am going to make more commitments about working on my game and mindset then last week. I had an idea to work this week only 8 hours per day because I need to force myself stronger to get the job done but because what happens I must work harder for one week more just because obstacles are here to stop other people. After that no matter what I’ll ban myself for working more than 8 hour a day I need a freaking break and get more relax to get rid of accumulated emotions. Found great image about commitments:

Yesterday graphs:

After few weeks of using rescue times I spotted that my average day is working for 9.5 with productivity 85% I thought WTF I thought I do more but then I realize it doesn’t count time when I wait for tables and nothing happen.

Today I am mega happy with my play and how I was dealing everything. I even didn’t swear. I was even running pretty fine but my opponents was running mega hot here’s the graph:

I see huge improvement in my awareness. Three weeks ago I couldn’t find a difference between my B and C game and between my A and B game. This is how it looks right now:

Did a lot of commitments about my work away from tables so I’ll use this time to work on this. I was playing very good today but I just close those tables, I am afraid I would lose whole BR If opponents would run like that. Had only ~300 hands today so tomorrow I’ll rewatch every single hand to find some more leaks I may made. Those A to C game analysis helped me be aware of few things in my game. I Thought I was working only on 2 things while playing. It seems I have 8 skills that I am working on while playing. I didn’t master them yet so I am worse at them when I am tilted / bored, it was a great info for me. Today I think I didn’t complain but I am not sure so I don’t count it as no complaining day. Only 2 more days with Gordon quitting exercise and I am free to play normal sessions.

Graph:

I need sleep. Was waiting for a hand with recreational player and gave up after 3 hours

Tomorrow I’ll think about putting this char in better quality because on all blogs someone asked me about it. I put it to just show how much things I wrote down. I need to read it once again to make sure that I want to put it in good quality on blog.

All day long was fighting for every penny I told myself 5 min more and I am quitting then he came…..

Hero (BB): $71.29 (142.6 bb)
SB: $25.01 (50 bb)

Preflop: Hero is BB with A 6
SB raises to $1, Hero calls $0.50

Flop: ($2) A 4 8 (2 players)
Hero checks, SB bets $9.25, Hero calls $9.25

Turn: ($20.50) 2 (2 players)
Hero checks, SB bets $0.50, Hero raises to $22, SB calls $14.26

River: ($50.02) 8 (2 players)

Results:

Hero (SB): $49.50 (99 bb)
BB: $48.73 (97.5 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with A A
Hero raises to $1.50, BB raises to $2.50, Hero raises to $4.25, BB raises to $6, Hero raises to $7.75, BB raises to $9.50, Hero raises to $11.25, BB calls $1.75

Flop: ($22.50) K 2 7 (2 players)
BB bets $22.50, Hero calls $22.50

Turn: ($67.50) 5 (2 players)
BB bets $14.98, Hero calls $14.98

River: ($97.46) J (2 players)

Results:

He wasn’t the only one:

Hero (SB): $86.10 (172.2 bb)
BB: $31.20 (62.4 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with 4 K
Hero raises to $1, BB raises to $2.50, Hero calls $1.50

Flop: ($5) 8 K K (2 players)
BB bets $3, Hero calls $3

Turn: ($11) 5 (2 players)
BB bets $5, Hero calls $5

River: ($21) 3 (2 players)
BB bets $20.70 and is all-in, Hero calls $20.70

Results:

I need to buy new shaker and few other things. I broke already two shakers and few different things. I am adding something new. I need to give a rest my emotion. I used to force myself to play even when I was angry. I forced myself to play numb. Now when I’ll punch something / kick something / throw something I am out. There is no buts or ifs about that. I need rest a bit because it gets easier and easier. I did forced myself for some time now I need to make a small break from it. Bright side is that I can control myself for 1-2 hours. At the beginning even 10 min was a problem for me.

8 ppl asked me about those A-C analysis so I’ll add it. Maybe it will help someone.

Just endend date with flopzilla. Tomorrow I'll write more. I am not happy with my today's game. Here's graph:

I thought that with my work ethic I can make just one thing next day. How wrong I was. Next day I thought “just two things” and I knew I need to stop it hard way…. I was working until I get the job done.
Today graph:

I quit earlier because I was playing bad. I was afraid of lose cash and I was playing like a pussy. I still need to work on analysis of my opponents. I know so little about everything and even things I know I didn’t master. I am going to spend a lot of the time on working with flopzilla and other stuff. I feel like learning new stuff is great thing and it’s very interesting while working on same thing over and over is kind of boring but this is what I need to do. I need to master basics when I’ll add some advance stuff. It’s so unsexy but I need to put hours in this to master it.

Was texting with one chick, she didn’t want to go out because it’s raining. I thought fuck it I’ll go on my own. It’s raining like hell I am mega wet and I feel so f.cking alive. I wanted to go for 5-10 min I went for 40 min. I remind myself all the stupid thing I did and was thinking about all the things I’ll do because of poker. Live is FUCKING awesome. I feel so f.cking alive.

I end this day tilted. I go away from tables because I started tilting hard and almost threw my last shaker….. I am very glad I’ll have a break tomorrow. As far 3 days without complaying. (I don’t count my post session analysis and my voice records because I don’t want control my emotions because I need to find core of my tilt)