I said and wrote 'this is the last time or I'm out' sentence many times. And I really meant it...giving my maximum to succeed. At least that what I thought. Unfortunately it wasn't enough because I wasn't putting enough of my energy, hard work and the most important thing - I never really believed I could actually do it. It sucks when you get used with idea 'I will give my all and if I fail at least I know I gave my best'...when in fact you know that 'if' is actually 'when'.
Why is this time different?
I put most of it on the paper. And I realised I actually enjoy playing poker, still.
What I hate about poker is losing. And I didn't acknowledge it for a long time but now I have to say it - I'm a LOSING PLAYER. I've been breakeven (with bonuses) for more than 6 months now and it sucks big time! Not being able to beat NL10 is humiliating and if I felt humble after few months I feel frustration and disappointment at this very moment.
Right now I don't enjoy playing poker. That's the reason I don't put as much volume but I rather read, think and watch poker. But that doesn't bring results right? Have to change it so I start enjoying in poker as I used to - through winning.
So what's the CHALLENGE?
Start playing NL50 by the 31.12.2013. Having a proper BR of 40BI.
Here is the more precise plan:
a) I'm starting with $305,96 BR.
b) I'm depositing $350 to get full first deposit bonus on 25th of August.
c) Have $530 first deposit bonus to clear.
a + b + c = $1185,96
Writing it like this $2000 mark doesn't seem that far away for 5 month period.
However if I give you results of my last 4 month you will see that won't be such an easy challenge to accomplish.
Results from 1.4. to 31.7.2013:
8304 min played (34,6 h per month)
hands played: 73005
winrate: -1,99bb/100 (NL10 + NL20)
Step by step plan:
1. August:
Playing NL10.
24 days * 150 min = 3600 min (60h)
1350 VPP
2. September:
Playing NL10.
23 days * 180 min = 4140 min (69h)
1500 VPP
3. October:
NL25
23 days * 180 min = 4140 min (69h)
2600 VPP
4. November:
NL25
23 days * 180 min = 4140 min (69h)
2600 VPP
5. December:
NL25
23 days * 180 min = 4140 min (69h)
2600 VPP
Prop bet offer:
I'm willing to offer $200 in total with 1:1 odds for prop bet. This is mostly for my bigger motivation but since I failed 3 times already in achieving my 'big' goal I don't think that's such a bad offer.
Goals to achieve by 31.12.2013:
1) hours played = 336h
2) posts to write = 63 (3 per week)
3) earning 10650 VPP points
(I have 1267,46 lifetime VPP at the moment; that means having 11917,46 VPP by the end of the challenge).