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What a shit day!
I took half a day off to rest and play a little bit. I didn't win ticket and I slowly getting frustrated because of that.
I finish playing and I was going to do some calculation with equilab then my GF texted me that our friends 9 month old daughter has cancer in both eyes!
How shit and unfair is life! I want to call them but I don't know what to say. I am completely speachless.
Cross ur fingers Folks!

How long can I run like shit, it is fu.kin frustrating, so many hands lost to weaker hands. I never cared about all in EV, but I decided to look at this and I am few millons chips under EV since august. Every time when I push mediocre hand vs tight plrs they wake up with good hands and when I have good hands I loosing to some random shit. I know that looks like selective memory but it always happen when it matter, when I need chips, when I have 1 bb I beating big hands but when I need chips I keep losing.
Need rest, I found that poker somehow keeps my mind away from bad news that why I played.
I wont play tomorrow morning. Need more sleep, before work.

Just played 2 satellites, too angry to write something more.

I won! Only 16$ in MTT but thats better than nothing, 22 didn't hold up vs A9s ( 18 left ), I feel shitty because I didn't win so long any satellite. I check my HM and since 10th of Oct I was dealt AA once KK 6 times but I lost few BB with KK, most of my Ax loosing as well, I have to be more patient. Tomorrow I will do SR. I have to go to work at 6 cos if I don't do that on Monday and Tuesday my week will be upside down.

Another short post. I didn't do SR today, was busy, play football 2nite and now I am too tired. I have to do it tomorrow cos I haven't done it from Friday if my memory is right. I am not very happy with my attitude recently so I have to do something about that. I am running bad and I don't like it. It makes me sad and I am loosing willpower and that makes me even more unhappy and angry. I need to get (somehow) energy and willpower from anger.

I've just read my first post in this blog and I have to admit that I am a Pussy!
I was planing a lot of thing and I failed again. It is hard to change habits, I will not give up but it will be much harder than I thought it is going to be. In my mind I believed that once I will start doing session reviews my winning line fly up to the sky but now I realized that it won't ne so easy. Because I didn't win any satellite I feel depresed I feel shit I am lazy again because I was doing session review almost every day but there was no winnings. I don't handle downswing vary good on Sunday I was tilting. I was shoving hands which I shouldn't ( and I knew it) in hope to gain a lot of chips ( especially after I pushed A3s in BvB and lost to soft call K9o in next hand I had KK when I saw it I was furious ). I have to work more on my game and my mindset. Today morning I meant to play but after I woke up ( felt very fresh ) I decided to stay 2 more mins in a bed and .... I can't remember whats happen but it was time to work. Today I feel a little bit ill. I will take Lemsip and after SR I will go sleep.

Played sat in the morning, played KK badly before add on, tried to lure some players and I did but unlucky one genius had A4o and with A on flop I had two outs, I won side pot and after add on I wasn't looking bad stole blinds once, lost one hand to short ( having better hand pre ) and was out soon anyway. I have done SR today and decided that I will give up smart playing with top range:)
I am still ill or feel like I will be ill soon. I have to read something so I will lay down with laptop and will go sleep soon.
I keep thinking a lot I'd like to have more time for learning I think that in next week I won't play and I try to learn more and try to finish evaluation all hands vs certain ranges. I can calculate odds much quicker when I play but still have to do it faster and I have to use cheat chart when I finish evaluation hands. I think it will help making better decisions in future.

Hey!
I didn't play in the morning. I woke up 4:30 but satellites were canceled. I went back to bed and it was good decision. I felt very fresh when I woke up again. First time since ages I went to work in good mood. In few minutes I will play with equilab. I want to evaluate all broadways today vs 5%, 10%,20%... 100% and some mixed ranges like 10% and 10% in two and 3 way pots. I will try play tomorrow if satellite will be on. I keep reading book " Awaken The Giant Within" and I find it motivating and interesting. My 100 push ups challenge is harder than I thought. It will take ages to finish it and I will amend my workout in future cos the one from 100push ups website don't work for me very well. My friend advice me to do hand release push ups. He said its hard to do but it will work better but I want to do first stage from 100 push ups website first.

I was planning to work with equilab yesterday but after I did push ups I started reading articles on net about arbitrage betting and before I realized was 11pm so I went to bed cos I was planning to play in the morning but I couldn't fall a sleep till midnight ( thinking too much=wasting time ) and when I woke up at 4:30 I felt like a shit and I didn't play cos in that mood and shape I wouldn't play any good poker. Today I will go sleep at normal time. Maybe I play one satellite. I won't work with equilab tonight I will leave it for weekend. I found today that I paid almost 1000 pounds of my debts. Ther is still about 6200 left but it is going in good way:)

I played yesterday few sat and 2 sng. In sat I didn't succeed but in one of SNG 180 man I finished 7th. Was unlucky pushing 33, BB called with JJ. I feel ill today not in mood to do anything.

Today there was a family day. Late breakfast, shopping, cinema, diner, Madagascar 3 and bed time, maybe I will watch few episodes of The Blacklist. I didn't think about poker whole day till now. Tomorrow I will play with equilab ( for sure ) but not long cos I have a 6 a-side game. From Tuesday I will do work with equilab and I will watch some movies about poker. I don't play till Friday. Night.

Hey!
I just fired up equilab, it's late but tomorrow I don't play in the morning so I can stay on bit longer. I was tired because last night I finish watching The Blacklist after midnight and I had to get up early. I was lucky to have short nap after work when my daughter was making a picture for me after that I had 6 a side game and after I come back home my daughter lost her temper after I discovered that she painted wall and told her off. I wasn't even shouting. I tried to exlain her gently but because she was very tired she start crying, kicking, throwing toys, try to hit me etc. I stayed in her room almost an hour before she apologized and cleaned her room. I wonder does she understand what she's done?
Recently I got interested in arbitrage betting. On arbitrage betting forum I've been adviced how to gain free cash to build up bankroll and from tomorrow I will start work on it. I have some cash already but I want to start with bankroll at least 2000 GPB.
ok, time for equilab now.

I've just finish worked with equilab but there is much more to do, at the minute all my work doesn't make sense when I look on it but I think when I paint right tabs with tight color it will be looking fine and it will be easy to use for me.
Today I started using betting website to gain the bonuses. It will take a while but it seems to be worth to do it especially its completely free.
Tomorrow I will be keep working with equilab, and Thursday as well. Plan for thin week is to evaluate all ax, broadways, and pairs. It's a lot clicking and it's very boring but I still want to do it. Hopefully it will work like I want it to work and I will learn equity by using it.

I feel like a shit. I am ill since week. I shouldn't have play football on Monday. I keep coughing and sound like old radio. I was working with equilab for a while and I was placing bet to get bonus from one of the bookie.
Now it's time to sleep.
I feel tired and ill if I feel like that tomorrow I will probably stay at home. I am missing playing poker and I'm waiting for Friday. I will play few tournament to feed myself:)

Today I was off at work I'm ill so I decided I will stay all day at home and get better. I was going to work with equilab but instead I decided play satelite. It was mistake tired and ill I could only tilt and I did. I lost few hand in row where I was dominating and get pissed off. Start shoving and calling with "easy fold" hands. My ego took over me, especially when the same player always beats me. After add on push 55 on UTG (3bb) get to calls TT, and K6, ofc gay with K6 won catching flash on river with 6diamond I had flush as well but with five I could stand when I lose to TT, but when I losing to hands like that over and over againg its piss me off. I am losing motivation with every game and day.

Too tired and annoyed to write anything.

Another loosing day. I can't remember when I won ticket. I minicashed 180man and thats it. I had decent stack in sat(25 plrs left ,15 tickets) but when I pushed K6o moron called me with A4o, I had a lot fe but U always find one moron who has to call with A high. I am well frustrated I want to start winning. Why I can't for fa*k sake. How could he call having the same stack. I need to rest but I want to play to win. I switched off HUD today to focus more on tables and not follow only stats and it seems that's work. I sucked few outs as well but still can't win. IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.................. want to scream!!!!!

Today I didn't think about poker at all till now. In next week I want to come back to my routine. Play in the morning and do session review in the evening.

No time for poker today at all. After work I played with daughter then I went play football and now my daughter has fallen asleep so I can go sleep in half an hour as well. I want to play tomorrow morning so I need to go sleep early.

Hi! I didn't play in the morning as I planned. I couldn't fall in sleep last night so playing after 4 hours sleep would be pointless. Today I was working for a short while with equilab and now I will go sleep. I hope I drift away quickly today so tomorrow morning I will play.