Last Try, Last Gain !? MTT+CASH

Started playing and realized that im not feeling that well, sleepy + tired so decided that im only going to load new tables till 9pm and managed to play 20 tourneys today. Had a final table at 10 euros progressive KO but finished 6th AK vs AT at least i won some $$$ at bounties. also had some deep runs at 888 poker but finished right before FT in most of them Also finished ~20 at winamax for 10 euros, so yeah very dissapointed with today, sure i won few bucks but still was expecting much more, ehh...

60 mtt's per night? dam! how many tables you play at once?

Originally posted by vonki
60 mtt's per night? dam! how many tables you play at once?

It isn't that much, there's one guy from Canada who plays 150-200 tourneys per day it depends how i feel but on average i play 10-11 tables and my session is 12-15 hours long so in the end thsoe 60 tourneys sums up but i think i could easily play 100+ tourneys but first i need to master the game and i think it will take a long time when i'll fully understand how to beat these micro/mid stakes.

Meh the sunday was soooooooooo bad, just couldnt win any flips and everyone who wasnt lazy could easily crush me withut any effort it kinda sucks, that after winning those ~900 euros now i can't win anything big but that's how mtt's works.

Anyway, i took yesterday and going to take today off cause need to write a business plan for twitch, youtube and my small project and it turned out that i will have to save up 279$ for youtube and some $$$ for twitch but at least its not going to be very expensive to start making videos and do stream, so starting from tomorrow i will try to stream and "flatten" my green screen for youtube, so that finally i can start doing what i always wanted:

Sunday:

Also got depressed yestreday cause i feel that my life isnt going anywhere so i started to watch/read some depressing stuff about life/death and how people are regretting a lot of stuff they didnt do in their life before they died and it make me thing, when was the last time i really felt happy. And to be honest i only were happy only few times in life and i could count those days on one hand... kinda sad i know
There was a saying that if you could have a day so damn good and would get to a point that you would tell yourself that that's it i'm ready to die, like literally. It may sound weird cause my english isnt my mother language but i hope someone will understand what i meant by it. Im not talking about suicide but more about the life and being at the edge of happiness that you wouldn't be afraid to die right now. Meh now, when i read through it it may sound like im suicidal, haha if someone can help, please rephrase my saying and make it to sound more logical

Anyway, yesterday i spending some time doing my business plan and started to think about my life, past and future and realized that my life sucks, to be frank. That my life right now is boring and i'm not living to my fullest potential and i know that i could much more in my life but somehow im afraid of success or to be more precise, i'm afraid to leave my old life behind and become "me". I started to read one interesting book about achieving your dreams and find the path of happiness, even if there are hundreds and hundreds of books that writes this about this stuff, this book in general is quite different cause it doesnt tell you how to do it but more to be guide to help you achieve your happiness your culmination by yourself but in a very cute and friendly way. The book is called "Serendipity's Secret". The cover itself looks very childish but the story itself is presented into such a cute and warm way that it really very to pick up and start your change in life. So starting from today i will write down some interesting quotes from this book and also some personal stuff about my life and i will try to be the person that i want to be, so i really will do my best to write down how it will go, and hope it will also help someone who's reading this blog. cheers

So it's already been a week when i last posted anything here...
To be honest i couldn't find any motivation to play poker all together, tried to play cash for few hours got bored, tried to open some mtt's but couldn't play more than 30 min. dunno, maybe i played too much in previous days or maybe i just got tired of poker, dunno. I really have this love and hate relationship with poker, there are days when i love what i'm doing(playing mtt's or cash for days) and there are days/weeks even months when i really want to withdraw all my money and stop playing poker forever. So yeah i really don't know why it's like that.
Anyway, few day ago my friend asked me if i want to come with him to Holland and work for 6 months. There's one company that worked at for a year and he said that he will help me to find a job there and the pay is quite nice to be honest ~1700 euros per month. So i will have to decide until August if i want to go with him or not but maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea to go there work hard and save up some money and take some time off of poker or maybe change my life all together...

But right now i want to give my best and play poker/spins/cash/betting and do stream as much as i can at least till July and see how it will go. Of course it's not going to be easy and if i will over work and i will get tired of poker than it's going to be a good sign that i just need to stop playing poker and concentrate on more important stuff, if i still will have a will power to continue playing after a week or month of insane grinding than maybe i will not go anywhere and just going to continue grinding for the rest of this year, so we will see.

Anyway last month was kinda okish, it's sad that mtt's are so damn swingy otherwise i would really be happy to end April with a 1k$ up but of course poker doesnt work like that:

Kinda sad i know

Anyway starting from today i will do streaming and also will try out Sports betting, i will start with 100 units and see how it will go, i will only bet on one game and no more than 2 units per game and if at the end of this month i will up at least 20 units i will continue next month if not than i will stop playing sports betting forever, so yeah gl and let's see how this month will go.