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Hello there, it's a nice blog that you have ♠_drink:
I also had a part of my life where I focused too much on drugs and parties and I think poker is a great way to keep staying healthier in both mind and body 
Je suis français alors si tu veux tester ton français sur moi n'hésite pas (y soy bastante bueno en espanol tambien)
Gl hf.
Chinese proverb : Give a HUD to a man, he'll exploit one day, but teach him to use a tracker... and he'll complain about his AIEV all his life 
"Si debis pedere, pedis superbe. (If you must fart, fart proudly)" VorpalF2F
Bonjour je ne parle pas francais 
Yo no hablo bien espanol tambien 
Lately I've been totaly focused on working on my game. I am forcing to focus myself only on few stuff. I would love to do more stuff but it is how it is. Especially that I am having really great realtionship it's hard to find time for something else And yeah poker defientely helps in keep good healthy lifestyle! (As long as you don't have downswing ;P)
100 days of commitments is almost done. Today and two days left. All I have to do is to hit the gym 2, do one cold shower and grind for 3.5h, than will show summary. Kind of glad about today. It was amazing volume going on. My brain is really a mess after such a huge session and I know I am on right track. I need to keep doing what I am doing and it will good. Was running bad on medium stackes (nl400) and running better on low stackes (nl100) anyway my winrate was still but result sucks:
Kind of enjoy my progress and kind of enjoy my game. I am very happy about few key points I understood about my game.
Sleep with one eye open, Gripping your pillow tight, Exit light, enter night.... Those were words that we were (me and neighbors) listening while I was doing cold shower and nailing my commitments. All I have to do now is don't eat any Junk tomorrow and I finally did those commitments. So far they were hardest I've ever had. While doing execution of commitments I have brainless monkey on steroids who thinks everything is important and add as much stupid BS as possible, there is also a mucker who doesn't give shit about style and just get things done. So many stuff were unimportant and didn't counted... Most frustrating was cold showers and gym (gym counted while exercise at home, physiotherapist didn't count etc.). At the end I had 13 gyms in 15 days, it was insane and my body is tiered as fuck, even though last week was more like 2-3 exercises with stretching it's still was too much (while doing 20 cold showers). Got ill a bit. GF was ill for two weeks and me being under big pressure from exercises and cold showers couldn't end other way. Were keep doing my shit because I had to finish commitments ate like 10-15g of vitamin C daily, 10k UI vitamin D and were sleeping as much as 10-8h a day and did it (cold showers was worst during that time....)
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Could lose 600 euro but I've made it. Therefore this money is going to be my reward for doing 100 days of commitments and succeeding at those. What is funny hardest part was sleeping 6h 40min+ daily... If I wouldn't got ill twice I would need to sleep more than usual before end of commitments. Anyway I am very thrilled that my 3bet game is stronger than my Single Raise Pot game. Thrilled to move it few steps forward than improve my single raise game / 4bet game. Anyway still need to work on two boards that I see insanely high profitable seeing how badly population plays them. Gl at the tables guys!
Pretty Okeish Month. When it comes to grind lazy definetely, managed to grind 76h :PPP Grinding hours are improving but had plenty of free days. End of commits, some surprisec free days etc. Overall I've earned 5240 Euro that month (+ Living Lifes + BS that I've bought at Black Friday and Cyber Monday) I am to lazy to count my real hourly becuase I'd need to distract all my spendings, all the shit I've bought via amazon (and it's a lot of weird shit... ♦ esp at Black Friday and Cyber Monday) so hourly more or less is 68 Euro / h I am thrilled to see is it variance or battling regs gives me more money than bumbhunting (way more hands per hour because of fast 3-4 tables). I understand myself better and I am doing stuff a bit different. Kind of glad that I checked results because had two rage quits, two days in a row. GL at the tables!
Also I have 1kk hands experience in HU by now:
I am proud about my winrate but I have to improve it GOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGO
BTW winnings are not real. PT4 sucks at converting different curencies than USD / EU and GBP. I used to play some at Europebet and at Klass network which was counted x4 Euro when it was worth 1/4 Euro or something a like.... Anyway what is most important is the winrate over the sample.
Hello Metallica fan, good result but don't buy too many things
Part of the key is indeed to understand oneself better, so way to go dude, gl hf !
Chinese proverb : Give a HUD to a man, he'll exploit one day, but teach him to use a tracker... and he'll complain about his AIEV all his life
"Si debis pedere, pedis superbe. (If you must fart, fart proudly)" VorpalF2F
No worry 
When it comes to living at home I am not overspending. The worst stuff is when we go to Japan / USA / Portugal with GF, than it costs some But will pause a bit with those travels to build healthy BR for higher limits and reg wars.
I am soo proud of myself I need to brag 
Today I couldn't sleep I mean I woke up because I've though it's allready time to wake up, sleep too much yesterday (like 10h, doing something what increased my sleep needs by like 50-75% of what I had :O) so today woked up early and started grind. After like 1.5h I had enough, yesterday some hit and runs at nl600, today lost like 3BI to reg, had to make stoplose even though I've felt in complete control over him Rivers didn't match my play and hand after hand I faced worst possible Rivers. It happens. Than some other shit happend and I ended rage quiting, throwing stuff and doing other shit, just to go back to grind in like 30min latter booking today 10h 25 min session with around ~3-3.5k hands. Really awesome day, in those days I feel so alive even though my brain doesn't work, it's hard to drive a card and say anything more complex than 'order nr 7 please. I did a phenomal job and did this week quite bad, rather than especially bad (did made some investemnts and lost like 4 hours on printing BS, going to post and doing other shit to pay taxes, ridic, you don't even know are u going to make money but regadles you pay taxes up front.... )
Anyway keeping lobby is way more energy draining than I've thoguh It's way easier to battle fish there and forth than keeping regs starving... 
And today I guess have quite good day when it comes to earnings becuase I've been doing quite good at nl600+ and getting rapped at nl100 and nl200. Good day after yesterday rape, where I happen to lose like 8BI in just 15 min or something alike 
Anyway very pleased with my
With your ?
Chinese proverb : Give a HUD to a man, he'll exploit one day, but teach him to use a tracker... and he'll complain about his AIEV all his life
"Si debis pedere, pedis superbe. (If you must fart, fart proudly)" VorpalF2F
I really did fucked up today. I don't remember when I felt ashamed like 5 min after the rage quit session. At most I was angry and in rage but today I am ashamed. I had rough run, slept 4hours today and I did fucked up at the tables. Many BI were spewed. Didn't felt like but since yesterday I got beaten a bit and today something broke. Maybe it's because I lost 600 euro at nl100 and maybe because I am weak. The main takeaway is do not 4 table with different people when you slept 4hours, let them have table for a while than kill them, otherwise you end up with hole in your brand new desk and shame after a session.
Drat, the poor desk
Hang in there dude, brace yourself, winter is coming ♠_drink:
Chinese proverb : Give a HUD to a man, he'll exploit one day, but teach him to use a tracker... and he'll complain about his AIEV all his life
"Si debis pedere, pedis superbe. (If you must fart, fart proudly)" VorpalF2F
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I am getting ready for winter It's goona be good, just need to keep on working.
Since Last Thursday / Tuesday I wake up at tilt level of 8/10. I do not have to do anything, just wake up and be tilted. I increased sleep quantity from 5.5h to like 8.5-9h. It's okey, my body is dealing with it and recovery from it. Still it's not hard for me to trigger rage. Just 2 points more and I am allready at 10/10, the point where I start to losing control. Was forcing myself to work, but couldn't work so well. Every time I sat at work internet was dropping off, you turn on tables, than internet goes down for 5 min, than you turn tables on and it happens again. Lost plenty of BIs lately. I guess due to variance, hard to tell sometimes because it's like brain shut off from those emotional arousal. Weird thing that working at Christmas was always like that for me. When I've stacked of KK vs AK I knew what is going to happen. I've faced plenty of crying folds that I did and I am happy about it. Some hands you are just happen to lose no matter what, ain't gonna fold KK preflop ever.
It's not like I need to rest. I need to regenerate. Fortunately I am starting to take control overmyself and do right folds, even hard ones. It's like when you face 5th river raise in 200 hands it's hard to fold, but when runout happens to complete everything, what else you can do with two pairs other than bet/fold... I don't remember when I was soo thrilled about Christmas or any other holidays, yet not supper happy about the reason why I am soo thrilled. Was up with my work and 100 days challenge for the first time I guess, anyway it's all gone since the weird mode thing happen. Anyway I am up for whatever challenge I have to go through in followings weeks. As I supposed there is something I do not know yet, something that has it's own reasons, something new I need to learn.
Not sure am I going to play tomorrow. Today definitely not. This month was the worst performance I've had this year, maybe even worst month in whole poker carrier. I am working on something, that is very demanding, high risk but can make a huge, huge return over the following years. I hate how it makes me feel, I hate that I am very weak and vulnerable but well I made a decision I am going to do it so I am sticking to it. The worst case scenario is that I lose two months, money at the tables and nothing will improve, the best are that my goals are going to be matched. Anyway it's worth it.
I can't even describe how badly I let circumstances make me play bad. This month I was calling a lot of River raise. To be honest yeah I had way more tigers. Last month I've played 22602 hands, this month I've played 22071 hands and this month I've faced 220% raises to River Cbet compared to last month and 137% more raises to Probe Bets I don't know other stats because I've realized how much time I'd lose trying to prove my point when there is someone else to blame than variance, those people are: me, myself & I. I was responsible for losing control after Fish hit and run 1nlk. (It was sick btw, I sit at the tables and play 20-40 hands with nl1k regs who are willing to play other regs at nl1k (for now those players are few levels higher than me) for sake of waiting for fish. Didn't have any fish action at those limits for 4 months. Last week had 3 guys, ALL OF THEM hit and run after winning big pot after I got cooler. So you think right approach is to play more solid against other people, I've made the other decision and I let take over my emotions and spew at nl600 and nl400. This month I've spew like 2k euro I guess.
Anyway need to refocus on work, can't let myself blah blah too much so quick summary. Fucked up this month. Spewed a lot. Let myself being controlled by other circumstances. Need to get over it and work from there. GL in following year!
Today hit new personal record day.
Grinded 8h, Worked on Game 1h 15min.
Extremelly excited and grateful about today.
Variance was on my side. Was playing very good. In first 10 min of grind lost like 3BI on nl100 but still. However resisted.
Soon we go out with GF to celebrate, yet still have some poker related stuff to do.