.if I had won this suckout...the freeroll could had become a giant boost to my BR.
Never count your chicken before they hatched! Or in German: Hätte hätte Fahrradkette. Sorry for that but it´s the wrong attitude. I have to admit, that I sometimes think in that way too but this attitude is the direct and best way to tilt! I have to say exactly this to myself and it´s not easy, I know, I have to work on this as well
As an ambitious player it´s hard to go in a MTT without expectations but exactly those lead to frustration and tilt. MTTs are swingy and suck outs are part of the game and it happens that you get a bad beat just in a cruical spot.