Why my posts thoughts are more than that of non-poker terms but more of philosophy or psychology as to manage emotions for example. There have been times when my game was in this exact spot where second best was regular happenings. Then the stronger the second best hand was the worst I felt, the more I felt the game was fixed or rigged against me.
Journaling thoughts about rigged esthetic visual of a second best hands helped to see my thoughts typed on paper, this process made my thoughts real. Emotion of second best or the weight of feeling that poker was somehow fixed or rigged against only me became clear on paper.
It relieves the psyche from emotion from the result and to be honest about my feelings of what my private thoughts believed that this could be true?
However, separately I was also journaling how I played each of these hands to flank my honest thoughts about who I was as a poker player in real time away from the table as well as trying to understand why my game was paying off the best hand when I knew I was second.
Jarred Tendler’s terms also helped not to fix my problems because when it comes to emotion, ego, poker, the book for me was not to fix something that honestly is outside of the existence of control to fix, but rather understand the terms to apply to emotion, the brain, and poker. Then when looking back at my posts my private thoughts then through journaling I can see small increments of real change.
Manage of emotions, hands; bankroll as some examples is close as one could get to actual control because there is no fixing something that has existed before any of in this forum was in existence.
Emotion, ego, good, evil, winning, losing, failure, success, all of who we are the nature of who we are as human beings all have been brought into existence before us, and we just inherit the mistakes, emotion, the brain because as human beings we all have the same three pound brain with the same emotions to manage as well as more mental game approaches to manage as some examples.
Each person has a journey of poker, life and embrace what is weak about us to make those weaknesses stronger bring our game forward as the journey continues forward. Try to stay clear of the path of control and stay on the path of management of this journey and have fun, smile, enjoy the journey because I know I have felt exactly as you do so, you are not alone in that respect.
This post is just to relate, not to guide or pave the way because increments of change is within us all. It is still up to you and your personal journey forward of this moment to see increments of change in your own way because each journey is unique to each person. Good luck sir in your journey.