(this is my first post and I don't know if this is the right place to start this thread)
I did it again, my balance is 0,00$ AGAIN!!!
It all started maybe 10-12 days ago when I came 2nd at a party poker 500$ facebook freeroll and earned 65$. Then after only 2 days I was at 20$-25$ and in a day or 2 more I was down to only 89 cents. I split it on 2 tables and I was at 10$ in 2 days. That was encouraging and gave me some hope. Than another good session happened. I played 250$ freeroll (11k players) and 2$ 6max for 6 hours and came 3rd and 5th earning myself 46$+ and was back!. I lost both hands with bad beats -ak vs a5 and on the other I flopped two pairs 79 ,but the 3 came for the other guy..
Wasn't 100% satisfied cause I had the feelling I could win even bigger at both tournaments, both I was back at 60$ from 89 cents!
As you are assuming, something bad must have happened(otherwise I wouldn't be writting these). It seems like I have double personality: 1)a guy that can play a tournament for 5-6 hours fully concentrated and cash in nice; 2) the other guy nobrainer that gets very emotional after one or more bad beats and donks his bankroll
I can blame it all on the blackjack button on party poker or on runner runner flush, but in the end I'm the only one to blame...
Please guys, give me some advice what to do or some books or articles to read, I know I can play tournaments pretty well and am not willing to give up on this...